the hidden side of me..

Terasaaa !!

2012-01-19T23:07:00.000-08:00

Kenape aku macam terase je seperti aku yang dimaksudkan beliau?? arghh, firasat aku je nii.

Techies Dinner: Unwrapped.

2012-01-02T06:41:00.000-08:00

Techies Dinner was held last 31st December 2011 at Tropicana Ballroom Ipoh. The last grand dinner with the course mates. The theme was Hollywood costume. I didn't have anything in my mind on what character to play. But after all, I go for ghost rider since I bought a black rider jacket with a black trendy pant. The items bought:

1. Red glasses

2. Red scarf

3. Black jacket

4. Black pant

5. Brown belt

Altogether I've spent like RM290. Yeaa for a one night event, it's kind a waste. Tapi tak pe la. Bile lagi kan. I'm graduating in two weeks time. A night before, I tried the outfit and came out with 7 options on how to style up the outfit. muahaha. Tak de keja la katakan. Final paper pun satu je. Here we go:

Option 1: The concept is sexy. lol. wearing singlet, black pant and

shawl wrapped around the neck. Memang tak laaa kan.

Option 2: A different style of styling up the shawl. It covers up

the upper body altogether. Lebih menutup aurat mungkin? hikhiks

Option 3: Here comes the jacket.

Option 4: The jacket itself, zipped up!

Option 5: The jacket + the shawl and glasses

Option 6: Hana Tajima? kahkahkah

Option 7: Fesyen tudung ala2 rock gituu. macam makcik pun ade.

kahkahkah makin

banyak option makin merapu.

Itu la tujuh2 options yang sempat try. lol. After that gigih la kaler kan rambut.

Orennn kauu.. taaaraaaa

Here the pictures during the event, ended up styling option no. 3 cuma tak pakai singlet

kat dalam, ganti dengan tshirt grey blink2. Tengok la kawan2 yang lain. Masing-masing pakai letup-letup. Suka tengok semua orang dress up. Awesome.

Btw, I really enjoyed the night. The last Techies Dinner before graduating :'(

Good bye comrades. Gonna miss you guysss.

Ya Rabbi

2011-12-07T01:57:00.000-08:00

Ya-Rabbul Ariffin
Tuhanku,Seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia milikku.. tercipta buatku
Dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hatiku
Tetapkan lah kemesraan antara kami
Agar kebahagiaan ini kekal abadi

Ya Muhaimin
Dan Tuhanku
Seiringkan lah kami mengharungi hidup luas ini
Ke tepian yang sejahtera

Ya Rabbul Fatihin
Tetapi Tuhanku yang Maha Pengasih
Seandainya telah kau takdirkan dia bukan milikku
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandangan ku
Luput dari ingatan ku
Dan peliharalah aku dari kecewa

Ya Rabbul Izzati
Serta Tuhanku yang Maha Mengerti
Berilah aku kekuatan melontar bayangannya ke dada langit
Hilang bersama senja nan merah
Dan gelap pekat awan
Agar aku bisa bahagia
Walaupun tanpa dirinya

Ya Rabbul Quddus
Dan Tuhanku
Biar sekuat mana aku menyintainya
Aku pohon agar Tuhanku
Melenyapkan perasaan ini
Sekiranya dia ditakdirkan bukan milikku

Ya Rahman Ya Rahim
Tapi sekiranya dia ditakdirkan untukku
Kupohan agar takdir memperkuatkan kasihku padanya
Selagi tidak melebihi kasihku padaMU

Amin.

Mari tonton filem yuh!

2011-12-02T20:31:00.000-08:00

MISTERI JALAN LAMA

Acap feeling feeling misha omar kuseru. boleh?

PAPA I ♥ U

Haha nampak macam real hazmi masuk dalam poster. Sentap tak lisa.

PUSS IN BOOTS

Ni la yang dubbing suara Puss dalam movie ni kalau korang nak tau.

The Puss, unmasked. hahaha. ok. tak lawak

SONGLAP

Haa. yang ni feeling feeling berlari macam Shaheizy Sam dalam gambar

kat bawah tu. Lari bro lariiii.

Mari mari pergi panggung tengok wayang. Kena la beli yang original atau tengok kat cinema. Kena support industri filem ok. Mesej ini dibawakan percuma atas kesedaran yang tinggi.

Muahahaha. Tak de lah saje je sebab semalam terambik gambar banyak banyak kat poster filem. Anyway, tengok la Puss in boots. Funny and worth watching. Meooooowww~

Current obsession

2011-11-25T03:18:00.001-08:00

My current obsession. I'm into kittens. lol. I don't fancy cats but kittens are exception. Because they are tiny and fluffy and the innocence look they have is just heart-melting. Full stop.

I visited Pak Lang that day and my cousin have a new kitten, Amanda. I fall in love with Amanda the moment I saw her. So gracious and cute! I could dieeee.

Alololoo..pandai posing. aku picit jugak perut tu kang. grrr geram. hehee

Garu-garu kepala dia sikiiit.

Taraaa.. I got big eyes and they are shining. -amanda-

Can I just slip this pet into my bag and pretending that she's lost.

Btw, I'm just into gracious kittens. Yang sopan-sopan sajo. Yang nakal-nakal tu pergi mati. I don't likee. Apa orang putih kata tu? go to hell. haaa.

Yeah

2011-11-24T06:02:00.000-08:00

Dah dapat one of the gadgets yang I wish to have. Taraaaa..

Ok tu je nak cakap. Thanks teman kan I hari ni darling. ♥ Okbai.

Happy Anniversary!

2011-11-17T07:45:00.000-08:00

Happy Anniversary Abah and Mak. Semoga panjang umur and gembira selalu. Thank you for everything!

Cinta baru ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-11-14T01:12:00.000-08:00

So thoughtful of themmmmm.. Kelakar and sweet la koranngggg. Thanks!

Desire

2011-11-05T09:48:00.000-07:00

Can't take my eyes off these 3 gadgets. The top 3 gadgets I'm aiming for.

1. The new BlackBerry 9900 Bold at RM 2,188

The BlackBerry Bold 9900 is a superb piece of industrial design, and without doubt the best-looking BlackBerry ever released

The brushed metal edges scream premium, while the carbon fibre-like battery cover on the rear adds weight to the Bold’s great looks. The Bold 9900 measures just 10.5mm thick, making it the thinnest BlackBerry ever.

2. Panasonic Lumix GF-3 at RM 2,199

It’s really hard not to like the GF3 – it’s very small, very stylish, very easy to use and is capable of delivering very good image quality too.

On top of this it also offers a generous amount of user control, some useful shooting features and excellent HD video recording abilities. The 14mm pancake lens is the perfect partner for it and feels just right in the hand too.

3. A budget laptop - Sony Vaio E at RM 2,099

VAIO E Series is equipped with Intel i3 Processor and Intel® HD Graphics 3000 for a smooth everyday usage. Count on Windows® 7 operating system, and enjoy easy carrying with a compact 14” wide display. Available in White with a truss patterned texture for an airy feel.

I should start saving money to have them all. Can't wait to work and buy all the gadgets I've been longing for. Recruit me anyoneee! HAHA.

Future careers. I don't have any.

2011-11-02T06:43:00.000-07:00

Semalam dan hari ni ada Career Placement Week kat UTP. Event tradisi di mana para final sem students sibuk drop resume and attend the interview held by the respective companies macam Proton, Schlumberger, Volkswagen, Dell, Baker Hughes, Shell and lain2.

Honestly, talking about careers, future plans, goals in life and bla bla, I am so far behind. I'm in vague and clueless. Tak tau nak jadi apa, means what position to hold and apply all that. During final sem, we should have already plan our career path, what we want to do and what we want to be.

Well, I myself have fallen into the course I'm not intrigued. That's explain much about this bleak future plan that I still need to work on. A degree in Business Information System. Ok. I still need time to get myself used to it. Such a crap. Padahal dah bear 4 and half years with it.

Actually, I do hope to be employed by PETRONAS. Tapi it seems so hard and way too impossible. Tengoklah, senior yang dah grad pun still tunggu placement. Ini kan we all yang tak grad lagi. Such a fuss. Ability test PETRONAS dah ambik, now kena tunggu result and kalau lepas baru dapat called for Structured Interview.

I don't put much hope to be called for the interview since the ability test was so hard. The hardest test I could recall. Kalau dapat interview pun kena filter lagi. Aigoo, it's so hard to get employed and work with PETRONAS.

So tadi I've spread my resumes to some companies yang I'm interested. You know, as a backup plan kalau kalau tak dapat PETRONAS. Shell macam best tapi procedure pun susah jugak macam PETRONAS. Proton pun macam best jugak. They said Proton is willing to pay PETRONAS to have the students they want to hire. How cool is that.

Tapi for sure lah, it must the best one, yang worth they paid for. I don't think I could stand a chance. CGPA pun cukup makan 3.50. Kalau ada rezeki tu, ada la kan. Just work hard, try your best and leave it to Allah. Harap-harap dapat kerja yang best and suits me well. That's all I can hope for. InsyaAllah.

Take a break. Go thru this. Funny!

2011-09-27T07:51:00.000-07:00

Murid : Selamat pagi, cikgu.

Cikgu : (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi sahaja? Petang dan malam awak doakan saya tak selamat?

Murid : Selamat pagi, petang dan malam cikgu!

Cikgu : Panjang sangat! Tak pernah dibuat oleh orang! Kata selamat sejahtera! Senang dan penuh bermakna. Lagipun ucapan ini meliputi semua masa dan keadaan.

Murid : Selamat sejahtera cikgu!

Cikgu : Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik. Hari ini cikgu nak uji kamu semua tentang perkataan berlawan. Bila cikgu sebutkan perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab dengan cepat, lawan bagi perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?

Murid : Faham, cikgu!

Cikgu : Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid : (senyap)

Cikgu : Pandai!
Murid : Bodoh!
Cikgu : Tinggi!
Murid : Rendah!
Cikgu : Jauh!
Murid : Dekat!
Cikgu : Keadilan!
Murid : UMNO!
Cikgu : Salah la pandai!
Murid : Betul la bodoh!
Cikgu : Bodoh!
Murid : Pandai!
Cikgu : Bukan!
Murid : Ya!
Cikgu : Oh Tuhan!
Murid : Oh Hamba!
Cikgu : Dengar ini!
Murid : Dengar itu!
Cikgu : Diam!
Murid : Bising!
Cikgu : Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!
Murid : Ini ialah jawapan, pandai!
Cikgu : Mati aku!
Murid : Hidup kami!
Cikgu : Rotan baru tau!
Murid : Akar lama tak tau!
Cikgu : Malas aku ajar kamu!
Murid : Rajin kami belajar cikgu!
Cikgu : Kamu gila!
Murid : Kami siuman!
Cikgu : Cukup! Cukup!
Murid : Kurang! Kurang!
Cikgu : Sudah! Sudah!
Murid : Belum! Belum!
Cikgu : Mengapa kamu semua bodoh sangat?
Murid : Sebab saya seorang pandai!
Cikgu : Oh! Melawan!
Murid : Oh! Mengalah!
Cikgu : Kurang ajar!
Murid : Cukup ajar!
Cikgu : Habis aku!
Murid : Kekal kami!
Cikgu : O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!
Murid : K.O. Pelajaran belum bermula!
Cikgu : Sudah, bodoh!
Murid : Belum, pandai!
Cikgu : Berdiri!
Murid : Duduk!
Cikgu : Saya kata UMNO salah!
Murid : Kami dengar KeADILan betul!
Cikgu : Bangang kamu ni!
Murid : Cerdik kami tu!
Cikgu : Rosak!
Murid : Baik!
Cikgu : Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!
Murid : Dilepaskan tengah malam itu!

Cikgu : (Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya keluar)

Strolling down the memory lane

2011-09-27T07:16:00.000-07:00

ecause I'm so FREE, regardless of the FYP whatsoever (muahahaha).. so I decided to upload few pictures when I was young. Since when I was a toddler. I've been so zestful to scan the old album when I was at home last week. Well, there's nothing much to do at home. Tv all the time, mau tak bosan. Keluar pun pergi mane je. Mall mall mall. Urghhh. Hiburan hiburan hiburan. Eh.. ke situ pulak. Cut the crap.

A happy family kan. Semoga kekal selama-lamanya. Ameen.

Take care of your health people.

2011-09-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum. Hello. Sawadeekap. Bonjour. Olaa. Ni hao ma.

It's been a while. I'm not busy, it's just that I don't have the gut to update. Hehee. Well, there's nothing much to update as well. This semester I will need to give full focus on my Final Year Project. Yeahhh! And not to forget, the only one class I enrolled on. Malaysian Studies. Also a favorite! I just love history. It has the charm in making people to be intrigued and hypnotized whatsoever. May be, it works for me je kot. Haha.

Hey, I'm here to talk about health actually. Have you consistently check your blood pressure? Or did you watch over your daily diet, your food consumption? Well, you have to monitor all this basic stuffs because it has big impact on your health. Last few months, I went to pharmacy with dad to buy some medicines. As for that, the pharmacist suddenly tanya la nak check blood pressure tak. So, we both agreed and just go on with the flow. Gitu. Dah macam majlis ape je, ade flow flow bagai ni.

Sekali kau, blood pressure aku tinggi kau. Lebih dari normal. Dah masuk kategori high blood pressure. And for abah, his bp is at normal. Aigo, ni dah pelik. Abah punye bp pun normal. Aku pulak yang tak normal. Drama ape yang berlaku ni? I just can't help with the situation. Boleh? Balik rumah bagitau mak, she's a bit worried tapi lama-lama dia pun dah lupa pasal ni. Aku pun macam tak kisah la kan. Lagipun, baru first bacaan. It could varied. May be nanti turun balik ke kan. Such a positive thinker kan aku ni. Ce wahh.

Sekali kau, masa malam raya baru-baru ni pergi check lagi sekali. Tinggi jugak! Time tu rasa macam kat penghujung dunia sangat. Keep thinking in head, "Aku ni sakit ke" "Dah nak mati ke" My two brothers pun check sekali time tu and they both normal. So balik tu, I told my parents and they started to worry much. Not enough with that I went to check lagi lepas tu at different pharmacy. Sekali kau, mencanak naik sampai 160/85. Normal is 120/80.

Mak pun dok asyik risau and cakap I do look like a sick person because I always have this bad eyes infection and resdung yang teruk.

Eyes infection yang macam ni

dan iniii..

Mak pun decide to buy personal blood pressure monitor to check my daily bp. And the pharmacist recommend a bottle of capsules to control the bp. So, sepanjang cuti tu check la bp hari2 and monitor how it goes. Mak bagi minum air ubat cara islam that she bought. I keep drinking the water as for daily supplement. Masa ni tak try lagi ubat pharmacy bagi sebab macam mak cakap, everything comes from Allah and penawar dia pun datang dari Allah. Kena yakin dan bertawakal dengan cara islam.

My mum is a nurse and so she knows a lot about healthy food consumption. Kena banyakkan makan buah, sayur, minum air kosong and less carbonated drink, makanan segera all. To my surprise, lama-lama bila check my bp. It's reduced much and is at normal. Alhamdulillah. Tapi kadang-kadang boleh naik jugak sampai 130++. Tapi tak de la teruk macam mula-mula dulu. I started to watch my daily food consumption. Nasi lemak tak boleh makan selalu, daging kena kurang and paling penting rehat kena cukup. Kena tidur awal, before 12 malam ye kawan-kawan.

Make sure you guys start to monitor your bp. High bp could lead to stroke, heart failure, kencing manis and macam-macam lagi penyakit. Masa kat pharmacy tu jugak, I did go for sugar test to know berape kandungan gula dalam badan. Alhamdulillah ok. It is at 5 out 0f 8. So tak de risiko kencing manis. I'm glad I have parents yang ambil berat pasal my healthy. Reason for loving my parents even more.

My personal record of bp. This time, my bp is getting ok. It reduced much day by day.

So my advice to you people, jagalah kesihatan. Jangan makan membabi buta je. Kawal ok, jangan makan banyak sangat makanan segera and selalu exercise ok. Tidur pun kena cukup. Buat kerja tak boleh stress2. Have a good lifestyle people. I also need to watch my bp consistently, it can go higher without any proper scrutinization and control. Ok people, maju lah sukan untuk negara. (Tiba-tiba). See ya in next post. Kalau ade la kan. Hahaa.

Yeay raya kot!

2011-08-24T22:03:00.000-07:00

Anggun si dara jelita berselindang dan ber'baya
Sepadan dengan pemuda tampan dan segak orangnya
Di pagi hari mulia kunjungi sanak saudara
Yang tua tidak dilupa ampun dan maaf dipinta

Yang jauh sudah pun tiba pulangnya untuk beraya
Meriah desa tercinta bagaikan pesta layaknya
Di pagi hari mulia semuanya bergembira
Tua muda miskin kaya berbeza tidak berbeza

( korus )
Mari adik marilah bang mari kita beraya bersama
Orang jauh janganlah lupa kita lupakan
Sila adik silakan bang sila selera jamu selera
Lemang ketupat dan rendang semua ada

Sebulan kita puasa menahan lapar dahaga
Tiba sudah hari raya yang mulia
Bergembira seadanya kunjungi jiran tetangga
Semoga menjadi amalan selama-lamanya

Pada yang telah tiada kunjungilah pusaranya
Berdoa pada Yang Esa setulusnya
Tanda masih di ingatan sedikit tak dilupakan
Di pagi hari yang mulia tetap dikenang

Serenity

2011-08-23T14:27:00.000-07:00

Serenity; a word of tranquility. I miss this word.

I wouldn't know how to handle serenity if somebody handed it to me on a plate.
Dusty Springfield

Serenity is knowing that your worst shot is still pretty good.
Johnny Miller

Despair is the damp of hell, as joy is the serenity of heaven.
John Donne

Boredom is the feeling that everything is a waste of time; serenity, that nothing is.
Thomas Szasz

My quote:

~ When we spend time with the one we love, we are on our way to serenity. ~

Syafiq Izzat

Am searching for it...

It's Fluffy because it's so fluffy.

2011-08-23T04:09:00.000-07:00

I never like cat. Even, when I'm typing this I still do. Honestly, I'm afraid it will bite and its claw looks pretty much intimidating. I know, it sounds nuts and not cool to say that. But yeah, cat is quite scary to me. It is like a mini tiger. It may look tame but who knows if it can harm people. Ok, drop it. I'm just being insane.

Ok, that was before. Now, I still feel unsafe but however it reduced much. Since when? Since I met this kitten named Fluffy. Yeahhh, I even gave him name. So not me. Fluffy is different than those aggressive cats. It's kinda behave and so of course, so fluffy. It's so fluffy I think I'm gonna die. Muahaha. But now, this kitten has gone. Puas cari tapi tak jumpa.

May be he's back to his owner kot. Sedih. I shall meet you again little guy becase you are the only cat who failed to scare me. LOL. So adorable, so cute, so fluffy.

Mana mak?

2011-08-18T07:48:00.000-07:00

Jam 6.30 petang.
Mak berdiri di depan pintu. Wajah Mak kelihatan resah. Mak tunggu adik bungsu balik dari sekolah agama.
Ayah baru balik dari sawah.
Ayah tanya Mak, “Along mana?’
Mak jawab, “Ada di dapur tolong siapkan makan.”
Ayah tanya Mak lagi,” Angah mana?”
Mak jawab, “Angah mandi, baru balik main bola.”
Ayah tanya Mak, “Ateh mana?”
Mak jawab, “Ateh, Kak Cik tengok tv dengan Alang di dalam?”
Ayah tanya lagi, “Adik dah balik?”
Mak jawab, “Belum. Patutnya dah balik. Basikal adik rosak kot. Kejap lagi kalau tak balik juga jom kita pergi cari Adik.”

Mak jawab soalan ayah penuh yakin. Tiap-tiap hari ayah tanya soalan yang sama. Mak jawab penuh perhatian. Mak ambil berat di mana anak-anak Mak dan bagaimana keadaan anak-anak Mak setiap masa dan setiap ketika.

Dua puluh tahun kemudian

Jam 6.30 petang
Ayah balik ke rumah. Baju ayah basah. Hujan turun sejak tengahari.

Ayah tanya Along, “Mana Mak?”
Along sedang membelek-belek baju barunya. Along jawab, “Tak tahu.”

Ayah tanya Angah, “Mana Mak?”
Angah menonton tv. Angah jawab, “Mana Angah tahu.”

Ayah tanya Ateh, “Mana Mak?”
Ayah menunggu lama jawapan dari Ateh yang asyik membaca majalah.
Ayah tanya Ateh lagi, “Mana Mak?”
Ateh menjawab, “Entah.”
Ateh terus membaca majalah tanpa menoleh kepada Ayah.

Ayah tanya Alang, “Mana Mak?”
Alang tidak jawab. Alang hanya mengoncang bahu tanda tidak tahu.

Ayah tidak mahu tanya Kak Cik dan Adik yang sedang melayan facebook. Ayah tahu yang Ayah tidak akan dapat jawapan yang ayah mahu.

Tidak ada siapa tahu di mana Mak. Tidak ada siapa merasa ingin tahu di mana Mak. Mata dan hati anak-anak Mak tidak pada Mak. Hanya mata dan hati Ayah yang mencari-cari di mana Mak. Tidak ada anak-anak Mak yang tahu setiap kali ayah bertanya, “Mana Mak?” Tiba-tiba adik bungsu bersuara, “Mak ni dah senja-senja pun merayap lagi. Tak reti nak balik!!” Tersentap hati Ayah mendengar kata-kata Adik.

Dulu anak-anak Mak akan berlari mendakap Mak apabila balik dari sekolah. Mereka akan tanya “Mana Mak?” apabila Mak tidak menunggu mereka di depan pintu.

Mereka akan tanya, “Mana Mak.” Apabila dapat nomBor 1 atau kaki melecet main bola di padang sekolah. Mak resah apabila anak-anak Mak lambat balik. Mak mahu tahu di mana semua anak-anaknya berada setiap waktu dan setiap ketika. Sekarang anak-anak sudah besar. Sudah lama anak-anak Mak tidak bertanya ‘Mana Mak?”

Semakin anak-anak Mak besar, soalan “Mana Mak?” semakin hilang dari bibir anak-anak Mak . Ayah berdiri di depan pintu menunggu Mak. Ayah resah menunggu Mak kerana sudah senja sebegini Mak masih belum balik. Ayah risau kerana sejak akhir-akhir ini Mak selalu mengadu sakit lutut.

Dari jauh kelihatan sosok Mak berjalan memakai payung yang sudah uzur. Besi-besi payung tercacak keluar dari kainnya. Hujan masih belum berhenti. Mak menjinjit dua bungkusan plastik. Sudah kebiasaan bagi Mak, Mak akan bawa sesuatu untuk anak-anak Mak apabila pulang dari berjalan.

Sampai di halaman rumah Mak berhenti di depan deretan kereta anak-anak Mak. Mak buangkan daun-daun yang mengotori kereta anak-anak Mak. Mak usap bahagian depan kereta Ateh perlahan-lahan. Mak rasakan seperti mengusap kepala Ateh waktu Ateh kecil. Mak senyum. Kedua bibir Mak diketap repat. Senyum tertahan, hanya Ayah yang faham. Sekarang Mak tidak dapat lagi merasa mengusap kepala anak-anak seperti masa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. Mereka sudah besar. Mak takut anak Mak akan menepis tangan Mak kalau Mak lakukannya.

Lima buah kereta milik anak-anak Mak berdiri megah. Kereta Ateh paling gah. Mak tidak tahu pun apa kehebatan kereta Ateh itu. Mak cuma suka warnanya. Kereta warna merah bata, warna kesukaan Mak. Mak belum merasa naik kereta anak Mak yang ini.
Baju mak basah kena hujan. Ayah tutupkan payung mak. Mak bagi salam. Salam Mak tidak berjawab. Terketar-ketar lutut Mak melangkah anak tangga. Ayah pimpin Mak masuk ke rumah. Lutut Mak sakit lagi.

Mak letakkan bungkusan di atas meja. Sebungkus rebung dan sebungkus kuih koci pemberian Mak Uda untuk anak-anak Mak. Mak Uda tahu anak-anak Mak suka makan kuih koci dan Mak malu untuk meminta untuk bawa balik. Namun raut wajah Mak sudah cukup membuat Mak Uda faham.

Semasa menerima bungkusan kuih koci dari Mak Uda tadi, Mak sempat berkata kepada Mak Uda, “Wah berebutlah budak-budak tu nanti nampak kuih koci kamu ni.”

Sekurang-kurangnya itulah bayangan Mak. Mak bayangkan anak-anak Mak sedang gembira menikmati kuih koci sebagimana masa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu. Mereka berebut dan Mak jadi hakim pembuat keputusan muktamad. Sering kali Mak akan beri bahagian Mak supaya anak-anak Mak puas makan. Bayangan itu sering singgah di kepala Mak.

Ayah suruh Mak tukar baju yang basah itu. Mak akur.

Selepas Mak tukar baju, Ayah iring Mak ke dapur. Mak ajak anak-anak Mak makan kuih koci. Tidak seorang pun yang menoleh kepada Mak. Mata dan hati anak-anak Mak sudah bukan pada Mak lagi.

Mak hanya tunduk, akur dengan keadaan.

Ayah tahu Mak sudah tidak boleh mengharapkan anak-anak melompat-lompat gembira dan berlari mendakapnya seperti dulu.

Ayah temankan Mak makan. Mak menyuap nasi perlahan-lahan, masih mengharapkan anak-anak Mak akan makan bersama. Setiap hari Mak berharap begitu. Hanya Ayah yang duduk bersama Mak di meja makan setiap malam. Ayah tahu Mak penat sebab berjalan jauh. Siang tadi Mak pergi ke rumah Mak Uda di kampung seberang untuk mencari rebung. Mak hendak masak rebung masak lemak cili api dengan ikan masin kesukaan anak-anak Mak. Ayah tanya Mak kenapa Mak tidak telefon suruh anak-anak jemput. Mak jawab, “Saya dah suruh Uda telefon budak-budak ni tadi, tapi Uda kata semua tak berangkat.”

Mak minta Mak Uda telefon anak-anak untuk beritahu yang Mak tidak boleh berjalan balik sebab hujan. Lutut Mak akan sakit kalau sejuk. Ada sedikit harapan di hati Mak agar salah seorang anak Mak akan menjemput Mak dengan kereta. Mak teringin kalau Ateh yang datang menjemput Mak dengan kereta barunya. Tidak ada siapa yang datang jemput Mak.

Mak tahu anak-anak mak tidak sedar telefon berbunyi. Mak ingat kata-kata ayah, “Kita tak usah susahkan anak-anak. Selagi kita mampu kita buat saja sendiri apa-apa pun. Mereka ada kehidupan masing-masing. Tak payah sedih-sedih. Maafkan sajalah anak-anak kita. Tak apalah kalau tak merasa menaiki kereta mereka sekarang. Nanti kalau kita mati kita masih ada peluang merasa anak-anak mengangkat kita kat bahu mereka.”
Mak faham buah hati Mak semua sudah besar. Along dan Angah sudah beristeri. Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik masing-masing sudah punya buah hati sendiri yang sudah mengambil tempat Mak di hati anak-anak Mak.

Pada suapan terakhir, setitik air mata Mak jatuh ke pinggan. Kuih koci masih belum diusik oleh anak-anak Mak.

Beberapa tahun kemudian Mak Uda tanya Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik, “Mana mak?”. Hanya Adik yang jawab, “Mak dah tak ada.”
Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik tidak sempat melihat Mak waktu Mak sakit.

Kini Mak sudah berada di sisi Tuhannya bukan di sisi anak-anak Mak lagi.

Dalam isakan tangis, Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik menerpa kubur Mak. Hanya batu nisan yang berdiri terpacak. Batu nisan Mak tidak boleh bersuara. Batu nisan tidak ada tangan macam tangan Mak yang selalu memeluk erat anak-anaknya apabila anak-anak datang menerpa Mak semasa anak-anak Mak kecil dulu.

Mak pergi semasa Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik berada jauh di bandar. Kata Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik mereka tidak dengar handphone berbunyi semasa ayah telepon untuk beritahu mak sakit tenat.

Mak faham, mata dan telinga anak-anak Mak adalah untuk orang lain bukan untuk Mak. Hati anak-anak Mak bukan milik Mak lagi. Hanya hati Mak yang tidak pernah diberikan kepada sesiapa, hanya untuk anak-anak Mak..

Mak tidak sempat merasa diangkat di atas bahu anak-anak Mak. Hanya bahu ayah yang sempat mengangkat jenazah Mak dalam hujan renyai.
Ayah sedih sebab tiada lagi suara Mak yang akan menjawab soalan Ayah, ”Mana Along?” , “Mana Angah?”, “Mana Ateh?”, “Mana Alang?”, “Mana Kak Cik?” atau “Mana Adik?”. Hanya Mak saja yang rajin menjawab soalan ayah itu dan jawapan Mak memang tidak pernah silap. Mak sentiasa yakin dengan jawapannya sebab mak ambil tahu di mana anak-anaknya berada pada setiap waktu dan setiap ketika. Anak-anak Mak sentiasa di hati Mak tetapi hati anak-anak Mak ada orang lain yang mengisinya.

Ayah sedih. Di tepi kubur Mak, Ayah bermonolog sendiri, “Mulai hari ini tidak perlu bertanya lagi kepada Along, Angah, Ateh, Alang, Kak Cik dan Adik , “Mana mak?” ”

Kereta merah Ateh bergerak perlahan membawa Ayah pulang. Along, Angah, Alang dan Adik mengikut dari belakang. Hati ayah hancur teringat hajat Mak untuk naik kereta merah Ateh tidak kesampaian. Ayah terbayang kata-kata Mak malam itu, “Cantiknya kereta Ateh, kan Bang? Besok-besok Ateh bawalah kita jalan-jalan kat Kuala Lumpur tu. Saya akan buat kuih koci buat bekal.”

“Ayah, ayah….bangun.” Suara Ateh memanggil ayah. Ayah pengsan sewaktu turun dari kereta Ateh..

Terketar-ketar ayah bersuara, “Mana Mak?”

Ayah tidak mampu berhenti menanya soalan itu. Sudah 10 tahun Mak pergi namun soalan “Mana Mak?” masih sering keluar dari mulut Ayah sehingga ke akhir usia.

Found this somewhere and I think I should share this for us to read. Jangan pernah abaikan mak. Tak guna menyesal kemudian hari.

Funny stuff

2011-08-16T19:53:00.000-07:00

This is FUNNY! Btw, my name is not funny k. LOL!

Final Year life

2011-08-13T20:19:00.001-07:00

Let the pictures tell how colorful and flamboyant my final year study is.

Terima kasih dear friends for the joy and everything.

Dean's List Award Buka Puasa Dinner

2011-08-13T07:41:00.000-07:00

Honestly speaking, I'm not that clever or a scorer. I'm just an average type of student who always try hard to get good marks in exams. I believe everyone can succeed if they work hard. Kalau orang tu rajin berusaha, he surely will succeed. Orang yang pandai semuanya rajin. The keyword here is Rajin.

Since in primary school, I'm so passionate to score in term of test marks. Always try to get higher marks than previous test. I had this book which I wrote the test marks for every subject and from the records, I came out with graphs. Simply to see how is my performance. I even jotted down other people's marks, the top scorers in the class. So that I know, where is my position.

Now in UTP, the passion is still there tapi dah tak de lah sampai nak tulis every test marks and buat graf semua. Dulu foundation ada buat tapi bila dah start degree, dah stop buat semua tu. Kat UTP, my result sampai sekarang ni boleh la. Average je. Tapi alhamdulillah, syukur dengan apa Allah bagi.

I always remember my GPA even since foundation pun. For me, GPA is so important. It's a benchmark of our study and how good we are.

Foundation first sem : 3.57

Foundation second sem : 3.26

CGPA Foundation : 3.41

Time degree,

First year, first sem : 3.09

First year, secod sem : 3.58

Second year, first sem : 3.31

Second year, second sem : 3.46

Third year, first sem : 4.00

Third year, second sem : 3.60

Current CGPA Degree : 3.50

Last Wednesday, we have this Dean's List Award Buka Puasa Dinner for DL achievers for previous semesters. It was fun to gather with coursemates and taking pictures. The event was handled by Syntech juniors and it was quite bleak. Never the less, it ran smooth except for the cert's collection yang macam huru hara sikit with the light went off.

I hope to graduate with CGPA above 3.50. My current CGPA is just on the fence. Cukup makan!

Apa khabar?

2011-08-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

Apa khabar semua orang? Sihat? hahaha. Akwardness sebab lama tak update so macam-macam rasa.

"Aku nak cakap pasal ape ni"

"Aku selalu tulis macam mane eh"

"Lepas ni nak cakap ape lagi".

~~"Eh, nama aku ape eh. Lupa la"~~ hilang ingatan ke ape budak ni

Haaa tengok. Macam-macam kan. Hari ni hari ke-13 dah puasa. Wewiiitt. Nak raya dah la beb. Ingat raya je kan. Padahal yang penting bulan puasa ni haaa. "Cukup dah ke amalan ko Syafiq Izzat oi", bisik kecil hatiku. Ce wahhh. This year nak baju melayu kaler maroon. Hoow liao. Ok, tu je nak cakap. Nak tulis post baru pasal Dean List's award pulak ni. See yaaaa!

Short trip to Lumut.

2011-06-14T01:28:00.000-07:00

Last Thursday, I went back to Penang. The main reason balik adalah sebab nak settle kan buku akaun Tabung Haji yang duplicate tu. Khamis petang tu, Anis hantar kan to Stesen Bas Medan Gopeng. Ima and Zyker ada sekali. Sampai Stesen Bas, pergi beli tiket to Butterworth pukul 9 malam. Since awal lagi, so pergi la jalan-jalan Ipoh temankan Anis buka puasa.

Lepas makan Ayam Penyet, singgah masjid sembahyang Maghrib jap. Sembahyang tu kan wajib. hehe. Lepas tu, siap-siap nak gerak ke Stesen Bas. Bas pukul 9. Time tu dah pukul 8.30++ macam tu. Jeng jeng jeng. Guess what happened? Anis tertinggal kunci kereta dalam kereta. So, tak dapat lah nak buka. Lepas macam-macam ikhtiar, ada la orang masjid tolong.

Suggest macam-macam. Pecahkan tingkap segala bagai la. Last kali pakai besi jolok-jolok pintu tu. Sampai 3-4 orang jugak lah datang sampai lah berjaya. Alhamdulillah. Tapi dah tertinggal pun bas. Time sampai Stesen Bas dah pukul 10 cam tu. So, minta tukar tiket. Dapat pukul 11. Nasib baik tak kena beli baru. Baik akak tu. Awww.

Ok, nak cerita pasal trip to Lumut dengan family sebenarnya. Dah tajuk pun macam tu kan. hehe. The trip was short but fun. Dah lama tak spend time with family pergi vacation. So, this short trip ni pun jadi lah. Hari Sabtu, we all bertolak ke Lumut. Hotel belum book, konsepnya adalah redah dan berserah. Hihi. Spontan kan.

Orient Star Resort, Lumut.

Sampai pekan Lumut around 3-4pm macam tu, terus cari Hotel nak stay. Tup tup nampak Orient Star Resort yang we all dah search kat internet before datang. So, terus check in. Mahal jugak tempat ni, RM 215 satu malam. Cantik resort ni. Seaview, betul-betul sebelah pantai. Kalau tsunami datang, merasa lah. Yang tinggal adalah Double katil single. So sapu je lah. Katil single dia tak de lah kecil sangat. Muat je tidur dua orang.

Tunggu abah register for room

Lepas check in and tengok bilik, kami pergi Manjung for lunch. Kami makan kat Restoran Nasi Ayam Mama. Semua order Nasi Ayam special and 3 layer tea. First time order kat kedai makan, menu adalah same je semua. lol. 3 layer tea dia sedap. Nasi ayam dia portion ayam sangat besar tapi haram tak sedap pun. Bukan tak sedap, rasa biasa-biasa je. Tak layak la nama dia Restoran Nasi Ayam sebab Nasi Ayam dia kena lah rasa sedap kaw kaw.

Lunch at Restoran Nasi Ayam Mama

My brother, Dik Wan. Lain kan muka.

Malam tu, jalan-jalan pergi pekan Lumut and ambil angin tepi pantai. Berjalan je pergi pekan dari Hotel. Dekat je pun. Eventhough Lumut tak de la apa-apa sangat tapi it was pleasant. May be sebab dah lama sangat tak jalan-jalan dengan family kot. So, pergi mana-mana pun mesti fun. hehee.

Abah dok pot pet pot pet

Esok tu (Ahad), pagi-pagi lagi dah pergi breakfast kat Tiara Coffee House kat bawah Hotel. Makan macam-macam sampai nak muntah. Lepas breakfast, next agenda adalah berendam dalam swimming pool. Since tak pandai berenang, jadi mari lah berendam. Tapi kejap je pun, sebab segan lah. Budak-budak je yang mandi. Dah la diorang tu cekap gila swim. Haiyooo, mane korang belajar ni. Jeles aku tengok. Berbara je hati.

Time ni, budak-budak tu main kat tempat lain

Lepas tu, balik mandi kat room sebab habis satu badan bau klorin pool. Then, kemas-kemas barang nak balik UTP. Esok ada kelas. Before tu, singgah pekan Lumut lagi for final shopping. Mak beli baju. Kak Yong pun beli. Me and Wan, we both beli shorts. Mak yang belanja, so ambil lah satu. Abah sibuk beli ikan bilis, sotong kering semua.

Sempat dua beradik ni bergambar malam tu

Lepas lunch kat Taman Maju, Seri Iskandar, abah drop me at UTP. Maka, berakhir lah weekend and trip dengan family. Abah drive balik Penang. It was a short trip but yet it was so meaningful. Family is a dope to everything. Seronok dapat spend time dengan family.

Rugi Bang Jan tak ikut sekali.

Post spontan. Kelakar la Nabeila ni.

2011-06-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

Oh ye ke.

2011-05-31T06:11:00.000-07:00

Ok post kali ni I prefer guna Bahasa Melayu. See, tapi still jugak rojak

dengan English. Biase lah, so Malaysian kan. I wanna talk about the quality of

me yang agak lurus bendul. Not all the time, tapi most of the time la kot.

There'sa difference kan. LOL

I tend to believe ape je orang cakap although it sounds absurd and

doesn't make sense langsung. Bangang kan?

Ok, contoh pertama masa Intern kat MITCO dulu.

Abang Khairil, one of the staffs in Polymer Division bawa we all pergi

breakfast.

Dia cerita pasal Singapore. Singapore kan is an island. Dia cakap there's

a pillar holding Singapore and this pillar makin lama makin haus.

So Singapore akan bergerak nanti. It will move ditolak ombak.

Abang Khairil cerita lagi yang Singapore sekarang sibuk dok buat pengayuh

gergasi keliling the island so nanti dapat control bila ombak tolak.

Sounds sangat ridiculous and siape la nak percaye kan.

But I did. Haiyooo. Bodoh sangat kan bila fikir balik. And of course geng

breakfast yang lain dok gelak kan je. How could I believe those words

from Abang Khairil. Lagi pun dia ni suka menipu.

Second story, time kelas Corporate Finance tadi. Sebab tu la baru terasa

nak tulis post ni. Lecturer cakap pasal makanan time dulu-dulu besar.

Pau yang dia suka makan kat Tg. Malim dulu besar

tapi sekarang kecik je.

Farid who sat beside me cakap dulu zaman 1930-an pun,

Burger McD besar macam satu tray and Fries memang

penuh satu tray. Tapi sekarang dah kecik. My reaction was,

"Owh ye ke? Seriously?"

Oh my god, I have a problem in believing too much from people.

I should reduce some. Or many pun will be way better. T___T'

Kulit Kayu Manis

2011-05-31T05:34:00.000-07:00

When I was desperate to get rid of those acnes last time when I was doing my internship,

I tried many ways. One of the famous traditional ways is to use Kulit Kayu Manis.

I know about it when I google from Internet. I bought the KKM immediately

at the retail shop. Grind the KKM and add some water and then put it on the acnes spot.

Don't try this way I warn you...

Because you will be shocked of how scorching your face would be.

Panas nak mampus KKM ni plus it doesn't leave

a good effect on your face pun.

My forehead turned red and it was worse from before.

See my face? Panassssss.

I did cried some more sebab it was too hot. It burned your skin alive.

Don't use KKM I warn you. It does't work! Tapi I don't know la kalau it works

for some people.

I love them banyak-banyak.

2011-05-26T20:15:00.000-07:00

Can I talk about my parents? Wait. Do I need to ask?

It's my blog kan. So yeah, I can talk about anything I want. (boasting)

It is just a random topic cause suddenly I think about them.

A week semester break as expected was not enough.

I spent too little time with family. Too little time with friends as well.

So many plans can be executed if let say the break is for a month. Sad.

Ok back to the topic. Parents. I feel intimidated actually.

Because my parents are getting old as time passed.

I want them to be healthy as always. I just want them to see

what will I be once I graduated. The job I will be doing.

How my married life would be later on.

So many things I want to give back to them in return

of their endless love and support. I just need time and yes, I

am struggling with it now.

Can't wait to finish my study soon so that I can work.

I want to give some amount of money to them.

I want to bring them to vacations.

I want to buy beautiful stuffs for them.

I want to buy anything they want.

And I would always take care of them once they are not capable.

Like they did the same to me when I was young.

Abah, Mak. I want you guys to be proud of me.

Like I always proud of you guys. (Nangis laju-laju)

I love them a lot!

Love,

Your Thoughtful Son.

This is so freaking out.

2011-05-07T11:12:00.000-07:00

I have a Twitter account and I am active updating status recently. Many times lots than Facebook. I found that Twitter is simple but yet exhilarating. I make my account private and so I do receive request from followers. I just approve all even I barely know who they are.

So just now, I decide to view my follower's tweets. There is this girl, I approved her request 3 days ago. I don't follow her back so I don't know what she has been tweeting in her Twitter. I read line by line and Oh my God, I was so in shock. I found these tweets from her Twitter.

A stalker? Please laaaa. I don't know what the ridiculous tweets are for. It is true when people said Social Network could be intimidating. I hope she means the other person. It could be other Syafiq Izzat in Malaysia kan. OMG, whatever excuses I'm giving, I start to freak out. Seriously.

Updates

2011-05-06T08:41:00.000-07:00

I'm in the middle of the examination week. I had my first paper this morning. It was Management Accounting. Alhamdulillah, harap-harap boleh dapat A. The questions were quite tricky, journal entries were so manipulating. I have no idea at all tapi insyaAllah boleh skor. Nasib baik coursework marks membantu.

Next paper is on Wednesday. There's quite a gap. Boleh la rehat-rehat sikit. Tapi the next papers would be on Friday and Saturday. Berderet la pulak. Never mind, lets put effort on this. I really hope to get Dean List for this semester. Well, siape yang tak nak kan. I better work hard. I have only like two more semesters to go.

Baik pulun sekarang, kalau tak nanti menyesal. ;) I said two more semesters just now right. It should be another one semester but I decided to extend. I was expected to graduate on September this year and the convocation would be on October. Awesome right? I know! But there's also few lacks.

There are 6 more subjects for me to take before graduating. So, if I take all these subjects in one semester (final sem), it would be a burden. Plus, it includes Final Year Project some more. 4 months to complete the project? I could not count much, so I better extend to one more semester.

So that I could divide the 6 subjects well and I can study in ample time. At first, i have the thought to graduate as soon as possible but then when I ponder, it's not about the faster we could graduate, it's about to maintain a good result and graduating well in first class honor.

I've spoken to mum and she said better to extend. I believe in mum, like I always do. So people, I will be graduating on January 2012 and the convocation would be in 2012. Never mind, Convocation is just a ceremony, nothing much bak kata Dr. Fadzil. The sad part is, the batch is like torned apart since half want to extend and some are not.

Well, everyone has own reason and decision to make. Lets work hard and do what we are supposed to do. Lets work hard for the final exam. Fighting! I start to miss my family, it has been quite a while. Only got 1 week semester break after done with the tiring exam. 1 week can't be enough. Hell no.

Burger

2011-04-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

Last night, on the way to burger stall to buy burger.

Acap: Hmm..Nak beli ape ni eh?

Me: Pisang goreng pun boleyyy (sindir)

Ok, dah sampai burger stall.

Acap: Hmm.. Nak beli burger ape eh, Daging ke Ayam?

Me: Separuh separuh pun boleyyy (sindir lagi)

Brother Burger: (senyum-senyum manja)

LOL. Acap ni memang susah nak buat decision.

Syazat Plutos

2011-03-25T20:59:00.000-07:00

Somene like you

2011-03-21T04:39:00.000-07:00

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

Rumah Flat

2011-03-20T04:11:00.000-07:00

Mati itu pasti.

2011-03-19T08:21:00.000-07:00

It comes to my sense that humans are very terrified and scared of death. Well, there is no exception to me. I read BeritaHarian online about the panic arouse among the dwellers in US and China. Everyone is going mad and raid for iodin pill and salt because they believe it can prevent the radiation of the nuclear which bursted out in Japan.

It is just a myth anyway. It is not true according to WHO. How panic and fragile human could be when it comes to death. Later just now, when I opened facebook, I stumbled into this. This is nonsence and ridiculous somemore. What the heck? A spaceship to another Earth-like planet because of the doomsday by the end of this year. OMG!

http://www.escapeearth2012.com/

Well, in my opinion, God already has the plan for us. So just deal with it. If we are gonna die, we will die. No need for an evacuation plan ok. We are just human by the way. Mati itu pasti.

Itulah sayang

2011-03-08T03:35:00.000-08:00

Whenever we feel upset, surely we have ways to overcome it. I have few ways. I would pray hard to God at first because I know He is the creator and He is the one who gives the hurdles for us to go through. Next I would remember those people who are close to me. When you know there are people who care for you, you would feel better and soothe. Well, it works for me. One of the people I have is Shean. She has been a good partner and friend all this while and I believe it will always be so.

She is the other person besides my mum who is very caring and noteworthy to me. She is lovely and her persona would intrigue anyone. I thank God Im still keeping in touch with her until now. I've known her since we were 16. And now she has turned to be 22. Well, Im glad to have you as my dearest sp, Shean. Happy Birthday. Live well and I wish for your great health and success in everything you do. I dedicate this song to you, currently in my favourite list. Happy Birthday!

Tanya sama hati apa asal sayang
Adakah tandanya nampak dipandang
Kumbang rayu bunga bulan dan bintangnya
Punya tanda-tanda hubungan mesra

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu
Ingat masa lena apa mimpi mu
Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang
Bila difahamkan itulah sayang

Itulah sayang

Contest "Splashy Moment" - by FiqKBE

2011-03-07T05:35:00.000-08:00

I read my friend's blog, Payeh and I found this contest. Macam best and so, I decide to join. Well for the sake of trying and for fun itself. Lagi pun this week, I'm not busy at all. So, here I am. Mane tahu untung-untung boleh menang kan.

BANNER OF THE CONTEST

For more information about the contest, you could visit here >> click here

This is the picture I gamble on.

It was a fine and tranquillizing day in Teluk Senangin where we five friends had such an enjoyable day out. It was such a great and beautiful day. It doesn't matter where we are, yang penting we have comrades and friends around. That is the thing which makes day out a fun stuff actually.

I want to tag my friend, Nadia to join this contest. Jejoooommmm Nad! Heheheheee.

So, that's it. Harap-harap boleh la menang. =) I put too much hope am I. XOXO.

Ku Menunggu

2011-03-06T00:17:00.000-08:00

This song kinda pleasing to ears. The rythm, lyrics and grace of the song kinda go together.
Layan~ Ku Menunggu- Siti Nurhaliza.

Ku begini seperti selalu
Membilang waktu berlalu
Entah berapa lama aku tak sedarinya
Berapa lama harus menunggu

Aku mimpikan suram cahaya
Bertukar cahaya indah
Semoga tiba hari bersinar ruang hati
Menyuluh arah jalan kembali

Chorus:

Ku tunggu angin perubahan
Barat utara timur selatan
Meniti doa malam dan siang
Teranyamnya semula ikatan

Sayang semuanya hanyalah mimpi
Kenyataanya langit dan bumi
Aku di sini Engkau di sana
Sayup jauh terpisah

Entahkan kerana sayangku
Ataupun kerana sabarku
Ku menunggu

Airmata dan senyuman
Antara mimpi dan harapan
Adalah rindu semilu menghiris kalbu

Yang terlalu menyayangi
Akhirnya terkorban diri
Menyedari itu aku putuskan
Pasrah segala pada tuhan

Masih lagi seperti selalu
Membilang waktu berlalu
Semoga tiba hari bersinar ruang hati
Menyuluh arah agar kembali

Magic does happen sometimes.

2011-02-26T09:44:00.000-08:00

This is just a thought. Well, a deep thought perhaps. Have you ever feel like your day is so terrible and awful, very much to the point that you become so upset and vex about it? Keep thinking about it for the rest of the day. I bet everyone had been in the situation. Well, that is life literally.

Let me tell you my situation. I have this extended proposal of Final Year Project which I need to submit on 4th March. My supervisor is so strict and we had a meeting last Friday (18th Feb) and she said she wants the draft by Wednesday (23th). She wants it to be by least 10 pages.

Do you have any idea how chaos my life has been for last week? I got 5 days to complete the draft which contains Project background, Prob Statement, Objectives, Literature Review, Gantt Chart and Methodology all. I've not even borrow any single book in the library to come out with the research.

A day before the draft submission, I made myself to the library and borrowed four books and that night was a living hell. I stayed up doing the draft from scratch. I'd only completed 2 pages before and I have like 8 pages more to do for the rest of the night since she wants it to be 10 pages.

I did it recklessly with big worries in head how mad my supervisor would be with my draft. She is strict and many have warned me about her, that she expects a good and quality work from her student. "I'm so dead" I could only think of that. Later, I've finally managed to complete the draft and by total, there are only 8 pages. Tak sampai 10, mati.

I was worried but I just submit the draft into her pigeon hole. By Friday, 2 days from the submission, we would have discussion about the draft. She will go through it precisely. So, last Friday, there was this meeting. I came late, and other friends have been on chairs discussing with her in her office.

The moment I sat, Fatin made her eyes pointing to the paper on the table. It's my draft. I saw words in red ink on top of the draft clearly said, "Excellent job! Well Done." I was speechless and I lost the anxiety I had that time. I'm so relieved, very much indeed.

We discussed about the progress of the project and I was so shocked she (my sv) likes my draft of the extended proposal. She praised and complimented me, I felt like being on the top of the world. Ok, enough of being proud. Well, I'm just astounded of how it turned out.

I already imagined, she would howl and be mad at me with such a poor quality of work but then it turned out to be the best among we five. God has been nice to me. Of the story, what I'm trying to say is that, don't be upset with something you think awful because you will never know how pretty and amazing it will turn out.

Well, magic does happen sometimes and I'm glad it happened to me. Thank God for everything.

The last part, part 3: Internship- Geng office.

2011-02-14T19:29:00.000-08:00

It's been too long before I could come out with this one.

The last and best part of the internship; the people.

I'm sharing you the happy and delirious pictures of us.

I'm so gonna miss the best moments I've anticipated, in every inch and nook.

Of the laugh..

the smile..

and the joy....

we shared together.

Of new collection of friends I've made along the way.

Be it among the interns or even the staffs.

Of the wonderful sisters completion; Kak Sue, Kak Mai and Kak Liyza..

and awesome & cool brothers; Abang Amir Abang Taufik, Abang Khairil,

Bro Daus, Shahrul and Hanis.

Of the girls who made my days during the precious 8 months..

with their perfect blend of own personas.

Of the happening staffs....

very supportive and super cool indeed.

Of a new bff I've encountered along the way.

All these wonderful and terrific moments,

it will be kept well and always be placed in heart.

forever and after.

Thank you all for making the 8 months the most unforgettable and pleasing one.

Terrible days.

2011-02-07T06:28:00.000-08:00

Post internship part 3 will come later after I dapat gambar dari Adeera, tak sempat nak mintak dari hari tu lagi. Now, lets talk about cuti CNY. Cuti Chinese New Year this time semua pun macam tak kena. I went back to Butterworth by train last Wednesday.

I almost missed the train tapi thank god, I made it. Have a blast with Naqib and Wan on the next day. Dinner makan besar with family on the next day.

Naqib belanja Haagen Dazs.

We ate at Mutiara Bonda, Juru AutoCity. The food was okay. Sedap lah jugak, I like sotong goreng tepung tu. Sedap and murah. Malam time makan dengan family tu pun I order sotong goreng tepung. On weekend, mak pulak masak sotong goreng tepung. Puas makan.

Tu je lah the best part of cuti CNY this time. Ahad and Isnin (today) were terrible days. It was awful. I bought bus ticket back to Ipoh from Butterworth on 2.30 pm Sunday. I waited there sampai 6.30 pm and bus still tak sampai. It was ruthless. To let the passengers waiting for hours.

The lady at the counter said the bus was at Taiping. Still on the way. Next hour, tanya lagi. Ok this time dah kat Juru. Then tanya lagi for another time. She said bas rosak. What the %$@#! Entah-entah bas tu memang tak wujud. It was a chaos, many of the passangers were in rage and scorned the lady. Bermula la episod maki memaki. I asked for a refund and bought bus ticket of another company on Monday morning at 10.30 am since Ahad tiket semua dah sold out.

So pagi tadi, I came to Penang Sentral and waited for the bus. Shit! Banana fruits twiceee. I waited for the bus for hours, the lady at the counter said bas rosak and still kat Penang. I had the thought the bus was not exist at all. Tunggu punya tunggu, finally the bus arrived at 1 pm. 2 hours and 30 minutes of waiting and finally the dilapidated bus came.

I was so in vex. My dad and mum called plenty of times offering to drive me to UTP. But I said no, I will just wait. Tak paid off for them to send me back driving for hours. I arrived at Ipoh around 3 something and rushed to take my motorcycle I parked at KTMB. I ride all the way back to UTP dengan weather yang mendung and kilat and petir all around.

I was so terrified and all I could do was praying hard supaya hujan tak turun. I was lucky enough as when I reached UTP, baru hujan turun. Hujan lebat and I was in wet a bit. I got this dizzy head and I felt like fainting. Shean texted me and I replied to her accordingly before went for a nap. I feel like meeting her tapi entah la bila.

I should submit the Final Year Project proposal on today before 12 pm and I skipped two classes for today. I feel so awful. Blame the bus, the company all. I should have arrived here on Sunday lagi. What a fate. Sigh~ Anis submitted the proposal on behalf of me and I hope the proposal will be accepted. InsyaAllah.

Part 2: Internship- Geng housemates, Geng Vista.

2011-01-20T08:24:00.000-08:00

There are too many things to be said and I don't know where actually to start. For the second part, I rather talk much about my housemates, the Vista troop. I lived in Vista Angkasa along the internship period. A place like no others, the place I learned the real meaning of independent. There were 8 of us boys, lived under one roof before one decided to move out. 7 of us remain still and keen to move on with life. Cewahhhh, macam Survivor je. There was also another group lived in Vista, the ladies. I name us Geng Vista lah senang.

We were like a family, one big happy family. Ouchh. Who knows we could live well under one roof. One thing people should know about me, I don't really have many friends out there and there are only bunch of people who are really close to me. So here the point is, even I lived with my own coursemates, we were not close. We barely spoke to each other in lectures dulu, never greet each other while met. But now, yes we changed.. thanks to 6-11-8, the home we get to know each other better.

At first before going for the internship, knowing who my housemates were, was a lethal and unlikeable news. I can barely breathe, am only comfortable with some of them. Here we go, we have Nuar (rarely or never have spoken to), Wafi (this guy is ok, regardless), Nabil (never have spoken too, all remains on online chatting), Khir and Nizam (they both are ok), Acap (this one I know best).

I took a risk! But all risks did actually gave you return. And I am more than excited to learn the return I got is so worth it. I have a line of new friends. Jump to joy, how appealing is that. Lets have a look here, we are scared at first to greet people but then when we actually manage to find the bond, everything would be just fine. Yeahhh, just fine. Give it a try, a worth bounty waits behind.

To describe each of my housemates. Ok first..Nuar, this guy was the one I feel intimidated. First glance, he doesn't seems friendly at all and his way looks outrageous. No way we could be friends. But soon, I found he is appealing and am comfortable with his way. He is kind of kecoh jugak actually. Looks are deceiving, I already told you in the first part. My problem with him would just be, he is kind of ignoring when we are talking to him. Hahaha. Blah la lu.

Ok next, Nabil. First thought, this guy looks arrogant. He only befriend with some people and no way he wants to be friend with me. I pun jenis tak kisah if anyone wants to be my friend or not. Ade aku kisah? But later, I just found there is something common between us. There are lots actually. I feel cosy when I talk to him about personal thought and life itself. And he always wants to know more. Such a good listener I bet. And always ajak keluar, wayang wajib! lol That's the best part of him.

Wafi is another housemate I found very understanding and pleasant to be talk to. He is mature, which I can not deny since every one admits so. He always wants to know how people think about him. Very curious about the issue in the country, and given worldwide. He is like a moving news to me. That is actually good and I am impressed and obliged, very much indeed. Glad I found and have him as a friend. But sometimes, he annoyed me when he likes to repeat the words we uttered. Hahaha but nvm, it could be hilarious sometimes.

Khir and Nizam, two best friends of one another. I know them since in foundation but we were not that close. We are friends since before and yet living under one roof is just another platform keeping us closer. Khir was like the house leader which he always settled down the bills all. Thanks him for that. Dia ni jenis yang kepoh jugak la, and agak pervert sikit. Muahaha. One thing bothered us housemates, he rarely took the turns to dispose and throw the garbage. Tapi no biggie lah.

Nizam. I just know this guy doesn't like to socialize. He was like keep doing his stuffs in the room. Rarely going out of the room, had a single chat with us. He is ok actually, very kind and I like his optimistic way. It just that sometimes I think he prefer to be alone and he is happy so. I feel good when talking to him sebab he got something which we feel cosy to share anything with.

Acap. I don't have to say much about this guy. I know him since in Form 1 and we are best friends. He is very determine in his work and always try to do something out of his ability. Always want to be at the top. Sometimes, I just think he puts too much stress on him. Be it in any forms. For me, he is born clever and he doesn't need to try harder. You are great the way you are. Cewahhh.

Itu housemates, geng boys. Geng perempuan Vista pun did rock my days. We have Kusyah, Iela, Eli, Yana, Mady, Rai, Zawn, Hanis and Shiera in the list. Tapi jarang la dapat lepak dengan diorang. Selalu jumpa pun Kusyah and Iela sebab we were placed at MITCO. Hehehee. Dapat lepak ramai2 same2 pun time bowling that day. I'm so glad to know more about my coursemates. I see another side of them yang I have never seen. I'm glad I choose to stay at Vista Angkasa. I'm just lucky. I love you people. I love you.

Now I already start to miss Nasi Lemak Vista which I usually buy lepas kerja and the pasar malam was a paradise as well. Rindu mak cik comel yang jual keropok lekor tuuu. Ok, enough. In the next part, I would talk about geng pejabat, the wonderful people I never expect I would meet. Till next time.

Part 1: Internship- the unforgettable phase of life

2011-01-17T19:28:00.000-08:00

So, that's it. The internship period has officially ended last Friday. Many I have learned from the 8 miraculous months and I do feel time did flies. I still have this fresh memory when I first stepped into the company. The mix feeling of thrill and nervous conquered me all day long.

There were nine of us placed at MITCO; Me, Acap (best buddy), Adeera, Mira, Piqa, Fit, Iela, Kusya and DJ. The only person I'm close with pun is Acap. Yang lain, I barely know. Before this, I was always at my comfort zone, befriended with those who are in the troop.

For the internship, I would say I took quite a risk since I only know Acap and itu pun we are not in the same department. I was placed with Iela and Fit in Finance Division. Honestly, one of the best desicions I've ever made in life, was to choose MITCO instead of other offers I got; CPDD KLCC and Infineon Kulim.

I've met wonderful people that I've never get the chance to meet, the best leaders in their class, the gorgeous peeps I've ever encountered in life. I was placed at level 14 with other Polymer Division's friends; Mira, Adeera, Kusya and DJ. Piqa and Acap were placed at level 15.

Since the day, we are like best friends. How deceiving and twisted life could be, a barely spoken bunch of folks turns to be best friends here. This is one of the things I've learned, to get out of your comfort zone and befriend with other people, you will soon know you just love it. Love to make friends.

The first day I met my supervisor, I felt scared. First thought, he is a foreigner, might be french. Second thing I've figured out; face could be deceiving. He is Malaysian despite of the look he got, and he is very friendly and cool in person. He is the Manager of Financial & Management Accounting Department of MITCO Japan.

I was given a workstation and be placed next to Fit. Fit is another friend I encountered in life. Whenever I feel bored, she would be the answer. Moreover, there's no person sitting on my right's side and behind me. She's the closest person I could talk to.

That is why I said 8 miraculous months at first. Internship is just full of miracles, it taught how real life would be instead of a cliche daily routine of a student. We encountered and anticipated various of people and we make friends with them. How cool is that. I am more than happy UTP decided to have 8 months of internship.

I shall continue to write and share about my internship on the next post. Too long and too wordy could be boring.

I love every single moment of my life

2010-12-10T21:06:00.000-08:00

Well, lame tak mencarut kat sini. Eh, I mean melalut, hehehehe. Things are going well up to this point rasanye. I thank God for everything He offered to me. Internship is going to end soon, very soon.

I have like another 5 weeks lagi in KL before I'm going back to Penang and then balik UTP. Oh sedihnyaaaaa. I love internship more than study life in UTP. I got enough of tests, assignments, projects and all. I guess there's an end to everything, so I would take this as part and parcel of life.

Study pun sambung sampai bulan 9 je and after that I would be a working adult. Going to work next year dalam office, omg! Macam I'm too young for that kan. Ok, that's something appealing, I could save money awal2 and buy the things I'm longing for.

had a great time singing 3 hours non-stop *exaggerating*

They think they look cool, I'm in doubt. haha

What I love about KL, I got chance to meet besties. Like that day, dapat jumpa Hazmi, Ucop n Ghani. Omaigot, it has been ages kot since last jumpa. I got chance to meet Shean as well, at last.

sweetieee

And to make it good, we spent time buying groceries sama2 lagi kat Carrefour that day.

I miss this girl so much and I think she is still the same Shean once in school. Lunatic but always pleasant. Glad to meet you dear and looking forward our next date, ehehehe. Good Luck for your exam. Gambateh! Hope this 'bedtime story' does entertain you. Hahaha

Buried is out of range

2010-10-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

It was a big mistake that I have done ever since! I should have not watch this movie, it was annoying. First, the screen was laden with words, prone to say that the movie is supported with all kind of organizations.

First impression, impressive! But then, the screen went blank! All we could hear was irritating sound which I first thought it was the cinema's technical problem. Guess what, it was part of the story! derrrr, then someone emerged out of the dark with the lighter on. Here the hero came.

He was in the coffin out of nowhere and he got a cell phone and knife together with him and not to forget, a pencil which I don't know where it came from. Starting from the first scene to the last one, all took place in the coffin! I went half mad in the cinema, hoping there would be at least another actor or actress, but well it seems like the movie is all his.

Ryan Reynolds conquered the movie from the beginning to the end! Bravoooo! The ending itself was absurd, he ended up to die in the coffin after all the efforts?? So, what's the point then? On hope he was safe after the sand leakage into the coffin, something like "Rodrigo Film" appeared on the screen, the end.

What the heck! If you are so obsess with this guy and raring to see only him for the next 1 and 30 minutes long on the widescreen, only then I suggest you to watch this crap. I bet you won't.

Didn't work at all

2010-10-18T06:03:00.000-07:00

muka jadi makin teruk, lagi banyak jerawat besar merah2 muncul, tskkk.. I'm so giving up. I have tried all possible ways! errr.. I mean most kot, hehe.. Serbuk kulit kayu manis dah try, benda tu memang panas gila ke? Macam nak terbakar kulit bile sapu kat muka. Bahaya betol la benda ni. Bedak sejuk pun dah try, this one pun same je, tak de effect jugak pun. Tapi bedak sejuk tak panas, sejukk..way better la than kulit kayu manis tuuuu, derrr

Produk2 ni pun gua da sebat, tapi still same jugak. Duhh, desperate gila sekarang! Ingat nak beli ubat makan kat pharmacy tu lah sebab dulu pernah makan, macam kurang sikit.

Hot stuff

2010-10-12T07:43:00.000-07:00

Last time when I was in Mid Valley, I tried this machine when you put your hand on it, the red light will blink to various namely titles and when it stopped, what you got shall be what you are ironically.

Acap and Wapi both got 50; hot-stuff! Woaahhh, the machine might has gone mad, haha! Ok fine, then I tried my luck and guess what I got, it was 10; old-fashioned!! Celaka tak? Dilapidated old machine! Hate u, hate u..urghhh!

Because I was so pissed off and on hope the machine might has gone wrong somewhere (as I wish), I put on another 20 cents and guess what? This time I got hot-stuff, ulalala.. ni baru la betol kan, hahahaha..duhh, I still have grudge with this machine!

How could I be old-fashioned at the first place? Derrrrr, I put on my best clothes everyday ok! (desperate di situ). I should not give a damn on this thing, it is just a random picking anyway, who knows next time I try, I might get 0; dead fish.

By this time, believe me.. you will find this machine no longer available in Mid Valley because I would defect it right awayyyy.

Way to go Malaysia!

2010-10-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

Seronok! haha.. Kami housemates kecuali Nizam tengok Komanwel tadi, acara terjun wanita! Tengok kat tv1 je la kan, tak kan pergi India kot, zzzZZz.

Tiba2 semangat nak tengok, pervert oh, haha..

The best part bile masing2 guess berapa markah diorang dapat lepas terjun,

ade cakap 60 lah, 70 lah..ikut suke hati je, hehe..Khir siap guess dengat point2 lagi, 75.6.. konfiden habis. Macam lah tawu sangat pasal terjun2 ni.

Bile tengok air berkocak besar je, cakap ni mesti dapat bawah 50 ni, konfiden jeee, haha..

Wapi ni lagi la, orang tu tak terjun lagi dah agak ni mesti dapat 60 je ni, hahaha.

Meriah2!The real competition was between Melissa Wu (AUS) dengan Pandalela (MAS),

of coz masing2 hope Pandalela menang.. the last round, current ranking..

Pandalela was at the second place, beza 0.05 dengan this Melissa.

The last dive (fifth round), Melissa got 80.00...wooo, hebat.

Lepas tu turn Pandalela, she amazed us even more as she got 81.6!

And of course she won the battle, menang emas wohh, tak sia2 la kami tengok..haha
Support Malaysia oh, teror la Pandalela, congratz congratz, you deserved it!

note: out of a sudden, semangat kesukanan emerge! hehe

Just the way you are

2010-10-10T03:20:00.000-07:00

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She won't believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she doesn't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't ever bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for a while
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Need help to get rid of these acnes

2010-10-08T20:28:00.000-07:00

I hate acne, it makes my face unreconigzable. Instead of giving me the mature looks, it gives nothing than leaving an ugly spot and scar right on my face. My forehead is the main target after all, like derrr..Chin comes right next!

That day, my housemate Nizam asked if I'm having chicken pox. He thought my acnes are the spot and signs usually related to chicken pox. Oh my, how cruel could that be?

Earlier, Acap my buddy and also a housemate snapped a picture of me in a close distance, right into my face. It was his new camera after all, so I thought this guy was so excited to snap around. When I asked why would he took a picture of me in that close distance, he said the camera has the function to vanish the acnes off.

Oh my, so I was like an experiment to him. Like my face is full of acnes, and he wanted to use my picture to test his camera functions. Vavi kan? I thought he took a picture of me because of I am photogenic or whatsoever! Nahh

That day when I took a visit to a clinic because of flu and cough, the moment I entered the room, the one that caught his attention was my acnes. He asked why my forehead turned up to be like that. What a jerk, he better asked about my illness.

Dah la tak bagi mc, menyampah aku. I have used many products kot but still nothing has changed. That day went to Guardian, the aunty promote Cosmoderm cream for acnes. At first, it worked well and I'm so delighted but then my face becoming worse. Damn it!

I'm so giving up, semua produk pun useless. Duhh, I awfully need a help! Anyone has suggestion, please let me know. Petua2 tradisional tak de ke?

Need You Now

2010-10-07T06:00:00.000-07:00

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone cause' I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how can I do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how can I do without
I just need you now

Woah, woah
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quater after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how can I do without
I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

English concious

2010-10-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

Not to say I'm good in english but I have the tendency and passion in this subject, and so pantang sangat nampak simple2 error ni. Macam snippet kat atas ni.

1. Why "invited"?
2. teenager should be TEENAGERS
2. "...to PRETEND"? I guess what she tried to say was, PREVENT
3. your self should be YOURSELF
4. "jobless....." what

To add some more, she liked her own status. Kalau dua tiga aku tak kisah tapi ni every status dia semua she liked. I have to say I don't like this kind of people, they are so desperate..yes, desperate ENOUGH.

Shhh..Pretty Little Gossip

2010-09-29T07:15:00.000-07:00

Nothing to be uttered, just a short update. Last weekend was quite fun, on Saturday I had this so-called reunion which I thought many would come. To my surprise, only few turned up. What a dissapointment but ok la, dapat jugak jumpa a few at least. The best part when ade cakap I'm taller and I'm now mature, kahkahkah..

On Sunday, we had this blast of touring around KL. Beraya rumah kawan-kawan kat Sungai Buloh and Cheras. Yang bagusnye, we three don't know routes around KL sangat and so banyak masa spent in the car, sesat sana sini. Time nak balik dari rumah fatin balik Ampang lagi la. Habis redah satu KL, last2 jumpa jugak Ampang. Nasib baik driver cekal, hehehe. Thanks Ima, Aznin, Fatin n Q!!

Esok I got invitation to open house MITCO Japan held kat Maya Hotel, KLCC. I have to put on my best baju melayu then since there's award for the best dress. The day after, Jumaat pulak.. there's another open house..this one by MITCO, held kat Nikko Hotel. Haiyooo, tak menang tangan. Both pun 5 star hotels, woot woot...time intern la baru nak merase pergi hotel mahal2..

Of Internship and Raya

2010-09-18T20:17:00.000-07:00

Talking about life now, I would say mine is like I'm living on this mainland and out of nowhere, I got a vacation to this island. A small island but surprsingly it is modern and well-established.

It is fun to have vacation there and I would say I have learned lots of new things, be it in blatant form or not. I am happy and hopefully will continue being so. After a long while, I decided to go back to the mainland and I realized it is the place I should be.

It is different but somehow it offers serenity and give more values. Enough talking about the crap, I'm referring to my internship business, mainland is Penang and the notorious island would be Kuala Lumpur. Oh Oh, after a week home, I feel like never leave home lagi.

Macam mane nak kerja kat KL macam ni? Urghh, never mind..put aside all those things, let's talk about Raya.

muka orang excited naik flight, can't hide the thrill oh

ni kat caring 1 stop cntre, paya keladi..not recommended! they made us waiting

all night long lepas tu out of sudden cakap nasi habis.

Such a vulgar attitude, nasib baik drinks on them.

Raya this year for me is just going okay, don't give much significance but at the same time, don't give much dissapointment. 4 more months to go for internship, chaiyokk2!

Selamat Hari Raya!

2010-09-16T05:49:00.000-07:00

So I guess I have to continue what I had just left quite long time ago; to update this remote and isolated blog. Well I should have start to update more frequently since some asked what's up with the long halt. I hope it is still not too late to wish Selamat Hari Raya to all since we are still in this Syawal's mode. Nothing special for Raya this time around but still it was exhilirating to meet relatives and to make it even better is of course, to receive duit raya. However, this year is the worst of all in term of collection of duit raya. Ohh Ohh, what do you expect to get when you are growing up year by year. Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya all, have a good one.

Raya oh Raya

2010-08-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya! wahh, awal lagi kan, baru 19 hari puasa, hehe.. I bought baju melayu dah, beli semalam dekat Jalan TAR. Colour of the year is yelloww. Not bad lah shopping kat Jalan TAR, banyak choice and price boleh bargain. Kuih raya sangat murah kot, you can have one box of almond london at RM15 je. Kalau tempat biase selalunye dalam RM25 kan.

So semalam, I bought baju melayu, sampin, button and 2 t-shirts. Duit bulan August tak masuk lagi ni, macam biase lah MITCO tu. Kena hantar report kat HR at the end of the month, lepas tu baru lah dia nak process cek semua, haishh..Malang betol lah nasib. Sepatutnye raya sakan, tapi ni kena be thrifty.

Semalam kan, I was so embarrassed. We all dekat stesen Masjid Jamek, nak balik stesen U. I was the one yang tolong belikan tiket for us 3 orang. When it was my turn, I uttered, "Masjid Jamek 3". Orang tu macam blur and I thought dia tak dengar, so I cakap lagi sekali kuat2, "Masjid Jamek 3!!" This time, dia tengok pelik with cunning look, "Masjid Jamek?"

Lepas tu baru I noticed, I am now kat Masjid Jamek!! Haiyooo, malu nyee. Orang kat belakang dah gelak2. Nak je maki hamun orang yang gelak tu, tapi puase kan. Malu nyee, cakap balik kat dia, "Universiti 3" then lepas tu terus lariii. Malu kot, macam mane la boleh tercakap Masjid Jamekkk.

Edisi puasa oh puasa

2010-08-20T20:10:00.000-07:00

Semalam hari ke-10 Ramadan and guess what, I dah dapat 3 kotak kurma! woww, boleh buat bisnes ok, thank you Petronas, thank you MITCO. I would say fasting kali ni quite tiring. Bangun sahur around 5 something, off to kitchen, grab some buns with hot chocolate drink then here me go. Off to sleep balik and by 7 am bangun mandi2 and off to KLCC. Time fasting, masuk office pukul 8 and balik pukul 4. That's the best part! As early at 4 dah boleh balik and part yang tak bestnya when you was the only one at home by the time you reached the door.

Lepas tu golek2 la bosan don't know what to do while staring at foods yang beli dekat bazaar tadi. Last week, I went home to Penang. Balik jumaat malam and arrived Penang Sentral at 3 am on Sabtu. Sampai rumah, took a nap and then sahur with family, yeayy. One thing yang tak pernah berubah pasal my family is sahur mesti lambat. Ingatkan this year dah berubah, haha.. but seems like it is just like the way it is. Pukul 5.30 pagi makan kelam kabut sebab 5.45 dah habis waktu.

On Saturday tu, I drove myself to MegaMall, on hope to fix my watch and singgah nokia care jap. Then break fasting with family, mum masak mee kuah and nasi ayam, nyum nyum. Esok Ahad, went back to KL balik and it was so exhilirating dapat board double-decker bus, Durian Burung. It was comfortable and siap ade tray lagi which ease me a lot time nak bukak puasa sebab mum bagi banyak bekal tupperware.

Minggu ke 10

2010-08-08T06:05:00.000-07:00

Esok would be minggu ke 10 of doing internship at MITCO. I must say yang cepat gila time has flew, like baru semalam I start doing this internship thingy. So far internship sangat best! I like the staffs, environment, jobs and of course on the top of the list would be the free meal. Like last Friday, dapat invitation breakfast with other MITCO Japan staffs at level 12, then naik to my level (14), ade lagi makan2 and lepas tu time lunch ade lagi makan2 dekat level 13. Memang betol orang cakap, orang yang kerja dekat KLCC boleh jadi gemuk, hehe.. Tapi kan, I don't see any changes pun lagi on me, weight still tak naik2 and I have stop going to gym tu. Ingat nak go on pergi gym KLCC sebab free, tapi tak tahu la bile..lagi2 dah nak start fasting sekarang. Lagi la malas nak pergi.

I would say yang staffs dekat my department sangat best, sporting and friendly, if only there's a hurdle, it would be me yang tak pandai socialize kan diri. I don't know la ape my problem tapi itu la, macam I prefer to sit at one place, buat kerja sendiri and like ignoring orang lain tapi I see some differents jugak as I undego internship ni. I'm more to accepting others compared to when I was in UTP. Kalau tak suke budak ni, memang sampai bila2 lah tak akan cakap dengan dia. Tapi itu dulu, sekarang dah ok! Cakap pasal duit kan, here I go. Muflis lagi! Cepat gila duit habis ok, tu la kan..nak sangat balik raya naik flight, tiket je dah habis 118 MYR, sewa rumah lagi, broadband, bil2 semua..Rase takut nak bagitahu abah duit dah habis.

Bukan sebab abah marah, tapi sebab he's been too nice. Macam tadi abah tanye nak bank in berape, bile I cakap 100 cukup la.. abah cakap mane cukup. Itu la yang I takut, sebab I have parents yang terlalu baik. Sebab nanti I would spend duit boros2 lagi sebab nanti I know abah akan bank in like usual. Takut2. I have so many keperluan! Like contact lens, shirts, 3 quater, camera, laptop baru and the list goes on. They are not keperluan pun actually, but wants. I have so many things I want tapi tak sedar how much money je I have in bank. MITCO tu pun satu, my gaji untuk July tak masuk2 lagi. My friends semua dah habis spent pun gaji diorang. Aishh, lambat gila nak process. Nanti dapat cek, nak deposit kena tunggu seminggu lagi, mati2.

Looking forward for tomorrow, minggu ke 10. And esok ade makan2 lagi, this time pot luck bertema kan masakan kampung. Each kena bawak masakan sendiri ber ala ala kan kampung. I guess I tak payah bawak kot. Tapi rase bersalah la pulak, tak kan datang makan je kan. Tengok lah esok pagi..ape yang ade jual kat depan jalan tu pagi2, rembat je lah, hehe.. dah 2 bulan internship, like cepat gila..so tinggal la lagi plus minus 6 bulan lagi, yeayyy..Hopefully, result for internship gempak, harap2 dapat 4 flat. Ramai seniors yang intern dapat 4 flat. Jeles gila, teror betol diorang2 ni..Dah pukul 10, omaigot! Baju tak iron lagi ni, ok daa..

Been quite a while

2010-07-20T06:34:00.000-07:00

Omaigot, it has been quite a long while kan since my last post. Been so busy lately on weekdays and on weekends I don't have time to update because I would go out like most of the time and when come back later, would be so tired. Life here is better accordingly I would say but it just that money which matters a lot. Can u imagine that I have spent about RM700 in 3 weeks time. I would say it was the first time ever, I ended up calling my dad for his generousity to bank in extra money into my account. First time duit tinggal RM10 je dalam account okk.

I feel so bad sebab I don't manage money properly till need to bother my parents. Sometimes kan, on weekdays pun I would go out watching movie dengan my housemates after balik kerja. Macam mane duit tak cepat habis? Haishh, I need to be more thrifty. Need to put aside all those wants, just focus on my needs first. Dah banyak kali keluar shopping beli new kemeja and baru- baru ni beli bag baru. Live in KL is like you want to have all cool stuffs around you.

Omaigot, I feel like want to shop everyday je kalau boleh, nasib baik duit in my account tak banyak. If not, everyday I would have new stuffs to show off. Well, time passed very fast amazingly, I have been doing my internship for 7 weeks dah pun and looking forward nak habiskan cepat-cepat. What a dull and tedious routine I have to go through everyday. Doing the same thing everytime and weekends have never been so appealing. The most awaiting time I would say.

Dalam hati ada taman

2010-06-30T07:45:00.000-07:00

Dalam hati ada hutan, eh eh..ada taman! As week by week passed, I'm getting myself adapted at Mitco. So far ok la, my sv pun dah start concern about me. Tadi he gave me training schedule and I'm start to worry much sebab he expects the system would be ready and tested by October. God, how could I design and create a database system for that huge company! I'm so puzzled up, it is such a hard work. Tapi semalam I found my senior (UTP), she has been working in Mitco for 3 years and she has taken the same course as mine, Business Information System.
She could be a great help, terima kasih tuhan. Enough with this internship thingy.

It is Granola, a kind of cereal which could be a perfect supplement for your breakfast. The thing is I thought it is well eaten and tasty but it is not that good pun. Macam makan cereal biase je, even honey star could satisfy you way better. Tapi it's not that I mean this Granola tak sedap, it's just doesn't meet my expectation. Semua ni salah Kak Zurina! haha.. I like to eavesdrop people..so I accidently dengar la Kak Zurina told other staff yang Granola sedap and then this staff poured some on her palm and ate it. And she screamed, "Akak, sedapnya Granola ni, sumpahh..sedap sangat!" Omaigoott, aku yang terdengar tu pun terus la set in mind, lepas balik kerja terus nak cari Granola. Dah la mahal, 11 ringgit okayh. So, from now on I should have not believe cakap-cakap orang, sob2.

Ni gambar me and my best friend itu, Naqib. He came to KL last time and we both went to Times Square for a parcel of fun. It was great to go out with him sebab lepas balik rumah lepas last paper tu, tak sempat jalan-jalan sangat. To make it more joyous kan, he treated me a movie, we watched Toy Story, 3D version okayh..it was so generous of him to treat me tengok wayang plus makan dekat MarryBrown. Thank you so much and you are welcomed to overnight lagi dekat rumah aku okayh.

It is me, yes of course it's me. Where was I? Itu dekat gym ye, Clark and Hatch Fitness Center.

This few days sibuk pergi gym je. Balik kerja pukul 6.30, pukul 8 malam dah keluar pergi gym, gigih kan. Anyway, I go to the gym pun sebab ade free trial. Tapi tak decide lagi nak sign up ke tak. Mahal la kena pay, 399 for 3 months! Duhh, mane nak cari duit ni? Nak makan lagi, nak bayar sewa rumah lagi, tiap2 hari tambang pergi KLCC lagi. Mati la gua kalau register for that gym, sob2..tapi sumpah best weh, suka sangat!! Kalau ade duit banyak, dah lame I sign up kat situ. I like the environment, the service semua. Last week duit dah masuk, tapi tak spend2 lagi, hehe..sebab balik rumah and sampai sekarang gune duit yang abah bagi je, tak sentuh lagi duit Petronas tu, hehe..so what's that means? It means, this weekend I'm going to enjoy gila-gila okayhhh, hehe..Shoppppingg yeahh!

Life is pretty cool huh

2010-06-17T08:28:00.000-07:00

Dah tak larat nak update day by day so I will update week by week. I want to tell about my life in KL instead of my internship thingy sebab I don't have much thing pun nak cakap about internship. In KL, I could see different kind of people daily and that's what make my day brighten and fresh sebenarnya.

While in LRT, I could see ade budak yang macam tak betol tengok cermin pintu sambil betol2 rambut and tersengguk sengguk. Ade budak2 yang bengap tak tahu bagi orang-orang tua duduk, kesian ok biar mak bapak sendiri berdiri lama macam tu. Bile mak dia duduk, tergedik-gedik nak duduk jugak. Lepas tu mak dia yang tua tu kena berdiri. Hoi budak, aku pelempang ko karang, ishh apesal nak emo2 ni, aku pun tak tahu.

Ade jugak yang berhias mengalahkan orang nak pergi kenduri, ni haa..rambut siap penuh dengan bunga2 yang nerayap. Ape kau ingat nak pergi show? Entah2 kerja dekat DBKL je kan, wakaka.. And bile dalam LRT kan I would feel guilty nak duduk sebab nanti bile ade orang tua/ cacat/ pregnant datang mesti kena let go seat dekat diorang jugak kan.

Macam that day, I got a seat and in front of me ade lady yang tengah berdiri. I didn't notice yang dia pregnant sampai la dia dah nak turun kat stesen mane entah baru notice. Omaigot, patut la jeling2 je kan, rupa-rupanye pregnant, nak seat aku la tu. Rase guilty sangat nih, so that's why lebih baik aku berdiri je lah dari Stesen U sampai KLCC eventhough mahu lenguh kaki kau singgah 8 stations in between.

Lepas tu kite macam tak sure, macam eh perlu ke offer pak cik ni my seat.. tengok uban baru 3-4 helai. Tak pandai la aku nak agak2 umur orang ni. Lagi kan, macam tadi ade Indian lady ni, tak sure la dia pregnant ke tak, sebab pregnancy bump or memang perut dia buncit. Nanti kalau aku offer seat, tak pasal2 kena sepak pulak sebab macam perli dia buncit. Tapi kalau dia betol2 pregnant macam mane, Omaigot!

See, cakap pasal LRT pun dah banyak..ni yang malas nak update ni..nanti sampai besok pun tak habis, aishh..Dan I'm so weird lah why people keep on looking at me eh? Sebab aku pakai kemeja with tie ke? Sebab aku hot sangat ke? Tak pernah nampak gaya eksekutif muda? hahaha..tak paham la, whatever lah.

This is my office's pantry..kecik je. Sometimes beli lunch kat bawah and makan kat sini tapi selalunye makan kat food court BSN lah, sebab murah and makanan pun boleh tahan. Living cost dekat sini sangat la scary. Semua benda mahal2 and I would think twice even nak beli benda yang basic pun. Sehari makan + tambang pergi balik KLCC adalah around 20MYR. Kalau sebulan dah 600MYR ye and tak masuk lagi sewa rumah semua ni.

Arggghh, berape sen sangat la yang tinggal untuk shopping nanti. Kena lah pandai simpan duit and belanja makan kena pandai cut. Cakap pasal makan ni, kesian hawkers kat sidewalk along Vista ni, kena halau dengan DBKL sebab masuk TV, aduan rakyat. Kesian la jugak sebab dah lama kan diorang berniaga kat situ and ramai jugak customer diorang termasuk lah aku ni kan. Nasi lemak dia sedap okk, tapi lama2 tiap2 hari makan, rase sedap tuu kurangg.

Nak cerita ni yang that day ade sorang girl ni yang macam bengong. I was right behind her mase dia gune machine ATM kat KLCC tu and pelik la kan kenape dia ni lama sangat. So aku usha2 la ape dia buat. She wants to transfer money tau from her account to another account. Then when the machine request for the recepient's account number she didn't key in and press yes je. She did that repeatedly. Keluar kad masuk balik. Keluar kad masuk balik. Macam nak pelempang je dia.

Apesal bengap sangatt. Dah kau tak isi recepient's account number, sah2 la transaction gagal. Ni dok ulang buat benda yang sama sambil garu2 kepala. Meh sini aku sekeh kepala ko. Lepas tu, I fed up la kan and tegur la dia and dia baru sedar dia tak isi number account tu, aishh. Nasib baik dia let me withdraw duit dulu. Nak tunggu dia siap, tahun depan je lah.

Ade lagi la banyak kind of people I met. Tu yang best stay KL dapat tengok orang macam2 jenis. Pelik2. Talking about my internship kan, this week ade improvement! Hari ni best sebab my manager tu macam ok je. He guides me on the project I need to work with and I think today la aku paling banyak cakap and mesra dengan dia pun. Kalau tak sebelum ni, jangan haraplah. Well good news, he is not that fierce sangat and kind of friendly jugak.

Dia ni kite kena banyak approach, tak boleh tunggu dia approach sebab memang dia tak kan approach lah. Takut jugak la nak approach dia kan sebab kalau boleh nak dodge away je dari dia tapi dah kau asyik termenung je kat situ dari pukul 8.30 sampai 5.30, baik approach je dia tanye kalau ade ape2 keje. He is way so busy gila, jalan sana sini. Pick call here and there. Always dissaper macam tu je kadang2.

Tadi for the first time jumpe General manager for Finance Division and believe me I think I like this woman so much sebab sporting gila and the way she talks pun sangat selamber and sembang like kawan2. Muka macam cina2 sikit and free hair. Hari ni baru jumpe dia sebab sebelum ni cuti panjang kot. Yeayyy, nanti nak get to know her better.

Tak cakap pun last weekend buat ape kan, ni nak cerita. On Saturday pegi Sogo with Nabil saje la jalan2 kan, survey2 tengok ape yang murah. Nanti dapat gaji senang nak serang, hihi.. Sogo sangat lame okk cuma tu lah, banyak sales, murah okk..discount bersepah sepah and berebut rebut mak cik2 dok pilih handbag. Congested sangat mall tu, crowded.

On Sunday pulak, pegi Carrefour Bangsar South dekat2 dengan Vista Angkasa ni je. Nizam lead the way sebab he knows where the location is. I thought dekat so jalan la ramai2 kan padahal it is miles away. Gila kau berpeluh peluh jalan tengah panas gigih nak beli barang runcit konon2 nak masak kan. Pfftttt, penat gilak ok tapi tak pe lah seronok jugak jalan ramai2 tengok view around kan.

Tengok la diorang ni, gigih kan. Nak beli telur mane satu pun nak discuss macam tu, hihi.. Biase la kan, tengah kesempitan duit kot, sob2. Last2 tak beli jugak, muahaha..Discuss je lebih, whateverr. Tapi sekarang kitchen dah ade telur, ayam, beras semua. Wafi la yang gigih pergi shopping that day. Rajin betol nak masak kan, for me baik beli je.

This is my bed. Ade rupa macam bed kah? sedih kan, huk huk huk..Tapi I would say mine la paling comfortable sekali sbab orang lain semua guna tilam kejung2 je. Me, pakai tilam Vono ok and berlapikkan toto. Wahhh, eksklusif kan, muahaha..Kesian la tengok diorang yang lain, tu la offer lagi kat aku kan, nak ke tak tilam Vono dalam bilik master tu. Sah2 la aku nak. Baik gila diorang, sanggup tidur atas tilam kayu and bagi aku tilam Vono!

Jangan suruh aku bayar sewa rumah lebih sudahh, hihi..Wahh, hari nak keluar pergi mane yek, dapat banyak sangat jemputan ni. Tak menang tangan, hehe. I'm looking forward for next week jugak. Third week of internhip, yeayy! 30 weeks to go, wahhh..lame gila kan 8 bulan tu, huhu.. Staff kat sane suka bergossip and I always eavesdrop diorang. Sembang pasal Siti Nurhaliza lah, pasal maternity lah, Sultan Brunei bercerai lah. Nak join conversation tapi segan, hahaha

Tak de maknanye nak join, semua issue perempuan kot. Banyak gila staff perempuan kat Finance Division tu okk. General Manager and Senior Managers semua perempuan. So riuh jugak la office tu hari2 dengar cerita itu, cerita ini. Second week memang ade improvement and therefore tak sabarnye nak tunggu next week, hehe..Dah dapat project kan, kena buat banyak research to come out with the system Encik Alfeez nak. Sorry lah sebab post kali ni panjangg gila.

Jumaat, fifth day..yeay esok cuti

2010-06-11T07:50:00.000-07:00

Di Petronas Twin Towers untuk hari ke-lima..yeayy, semakin lama adalah semakin best cuma itulah, I think I'm homesick kot, nak balik rumah! Tapi tak tahu lah bile, tak sempat kot..balik kerja at 5.30 pm on Friday lepas tu nanti kena datang balik Ahad before malam sebab Isnin kerja. Sedih kan!! Tadi sembahyang Jumaat kat Masjid As-Syakirin KLCC, omaigott ramai gila orang okay, tak tahu la berape ribu semua tu..

Hari ni kat office tak de kerja pun, cuma buat2 sibuk je lah. Bila boring, baru la cari supervisor yang garang tu tanya what can I do for you untuk hari ni. Dia pass gua kat Kak Zurina and this akak agak sombong la. Dia boleh buat muka, tarik panjang okay bila manager suruh dia ajar me something. Okay fine, aku tak kisah.

Tapi dia ajar jugak la and aku tak faham pun ape yang dia explain tu, so no point lah kan. Baik surf internet je, huhh..I think my supervisor tu actually baik kot cuma it's me je yang tak kenal dia lagi sebab orang lain macam comfortable je dengan dia. Tadi time jumpe dia pun, ok la..not bad. Cuma may be dia selalu busy sebab tu macam selalu ignore me. Whatever.

Kad akses pintu masuk yang sangat penting okay, tak de benda alah ni jangan harap kau boleh masuk any one of the towers. Gua suka rantai silver tu, nampak macam nice bila pakai, kad pun cepat je siap, first day tu dah dapat. Tak suka kad matrik UTP yang buruk lagi usang, dah la print my name as Izzat. Tak kisah sebab sekarang I use this new card, hehe..

Gambar ini bukan lakonan, gua memang sibuk and rajin buat kerja, wakaka..Shafitra siap gelak okay time ambik gambar ni sambil cakap "Blah la ko, buat2 rajin"

Tahu tak time bila me and Shafitra paling suka? Time lampu berkelip and padam! Sebab it means it is time for lunch or to go back home. Sebijik macam kat library UTP ok.

Time library nak tutup, mula la lampu berkelip kelip, haha..kat sini pun konsep dia sama rupanya. Baguslah Petronas ni, hihi..Cara efektif untuk halau orang di samping dapat jimat kos elektrik. The best part kan mase lampu berkelip, me and Shafitra would look at each other sambil sengih- sengih. Boleh pulak masing- masing berpaling at the same time. Nampak sangat tak de kerja kan, tunggu time nak lunch and go back je. Esok Sabtu yeayy, time untuk bergembira!!

Fourth Day of Doing Internship

2010-06-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

I'm so jealous with my other coursemates because they have bundle of joy while doing their internship. Well I have to say that I'm not yet there to achieve that kind of nerve. I blame this on my manager. Well, he doesn't seems like my supervisor pun. That day pun Kak Farhana dah cakap that we don't actually have supervisor.

But, because he is the manager's divison that I'm in, so supposedly he is my supervisor la kan. He is weird!! He is kind of ignoring me, I'm so sad noww. Yess, supervisor is the most important thing while you are doing internship. You will be assessed by him and he is the one who monitor and evaluate you for the 8 months period.

So, if you get a friendly and super nice supervisor then you are at least can take a short breath. And for me, I'm dead..I'm so unlucky I got this guy as my supervisor. He doesn't even give me works to do. He passed by my table tremendously, I count how many times he going back and forth here and there.

Why don't he stops at my table, greets me and give me some work to do. I'm bored as hell tahu tak. He should be on leave hari ni tapi dia datang jugak, ade something to settle on perhaps. I'm like invisible to him, heylooooo..don't you see me here! Tapi nasiblah semalam time he's on leave, Kak Honeyzah bagi homework.

So hari ni sehari suntuk siapkan that work. Banyak gila, buat dari pagi masuk kerja, pukul 5 petang baru habis. 2000 rows of data ok need to be managed, in excel. There are about 32 pages altogether the account receivable of customers that need to be caculated. At least I done something today, so tak de la boring sangat.

Esok I don't know la what to do. He is not coming, cuti lagi sampai Selasa. Damn! Jeles bile kawan2 lain cakap supervisor diorang bawa jalan2 pergi skybridge, belanja makan la, bwa pergi main bowling la, bagi kerja suruh buat la..me? I got none of them, I'm isolated! I should not have choose MITCO at the first place, my mistake and I regret for that. Fullstop!!

p/s: Esok jumaat, lepas tu Sabtu and Ahad, jump for joy! Tapi tak boleh keluar sakan, gaji tak masuk lagi

Wednesday- Third Day of Doing Internship

2010-06-09T08:09:00.000-07:00

Today is better than the first two days. Today I tend to know more staffs in the department and work with them. Guess what, my manager/ supervisor take a leave today for a week long. So I guess I don't have to come la tomorrow since there is no one to assess and monitor me. For the first hour, I was bored to death and so walked to Abang Nizam pretending to ask, "is that Mr Alfeez on leave today?" Dah tahu tapi saje tanye. Lepas tu since dia tengok I was like clueless, tak de job nak buat, he screamed to his other colleague, "Siti, ni kesian anak buah ko ni tak de keje, merayap sampai ke sini dah haa".

Omaigot, malu okk..satu department kot boleh dengar. So Kak Siti yang macam penolong Mr Alfeez tu pun bagi la a file with thick documents about GST (Good n Services Tax) of MITCO Japan. She gave a long explaination about how the transaction works between supplier, MITCO Japan and customers. After that, I need to go through the file, make some study about it. Baca2 and buat2 paham then at 1 pm out to lunch with Shafitra, Iela and other coursemates kat food court luar. Oh yess, food court BSN ni murah ok..

Nasi goreng ayam kunyit and air oren at RM4 je. Wowww, so I know where to go for lunch later on. I ate one table with my colleague (staff MITCO), Abang Shahrul and another one (Azim) yang intern kat situ jugak, tapi dah dua bulan..
They were friendly, surprisingly. Lepas habis makan, off to pray then naik level 14 balik, continue my work (work la sangat).

Dekat2 pukul 4 tu, Kak Siti datang balik to my place tanye paham tak pasal GST. Cuak okie takut dia soal siasat. Dah la aku surf internet je tadi since Internet connection dah boleh pakai kat situ. Nasib baik la, dia baik and lepas tu tanye her other colleagues, sape2 yang nak aku buat kerja ape2, omaigottt..gua dah seram sejuk, belajar account satu semester je kot, tu pun basic je.
Then Akak Honeyzah datang bagi homework. Dia kesian tengok aku tak de keje ke or dia ambik kesempatan suruh aku siapkan keje dia, whateverr la..

Lagipun aku memang tengah boring so layan je la. Kena total up sum and average collection period of Receivables for MITCO Japan transactions. So, work with microsoft excel je la. Nasib baik there is no such thing like programming. Tapi nanti manager nak suruh buat projek, he already told me he wanted an integrated database project for MITCO Japan Finance dept, matiii laaa.

note: sape kate lif KLCC laju? lembab nak mati ok, lif vista angkasa lagi lajuu

Tuesday- Second day of doing My Internship

2010-06-08T06:24:00.000-07:00

I'm in KL now, staying at Vista Angkasa Kerinchi..so far, life is okay..new housemates seem to be not that bad. well at least not as what I imagined it would be. It is way better, hehe

my new home for 8 months with 7 other housemates

Started my internship yesterday and believe me, it is not fun at all. Most UTPians would say doing internship is the best and joyous part of being a student. Well, it doesn't work for me I guess. My division's manager is not that friendly, he is as fierce as lion. But, some lions can be tamed and laid down. I hope this one is included in that kind of tame lion.

Yes, first day would always be boring. All people would say so because there will just be a briefing and a walk around the office to introduce the staffs. What you do next is to sit on the chair with desk provided till the clock reaches 5.30 pm. Okay, that is way so tedious.

Today is the second day and guess what, I did the same routine I did for yesterday, board on putra lrt to KLCC at 7.45 am, once arrived I would walk through the sidewalk with the advertisement of maxis and dell moving up and down all sides long. Impressed!

Semalam excited tengok advertisment ni gerak atas bawah. Tapi hari ni tengok terus nak muntah. Dah tak menarik ok, go change to something more incredible please, hihi..Masuk office macam usual tadi and greet Mr Alfeez, the manager with Good Morning. I asked if there is something I can work with. I'm attached to Finance and Service Division under Petronas MITCO Japan.

He then passed me few papers of accouting sheet for me to go through and understand. A large table with numbers all around. Well, what do you expect when you are attached to Finance and Management Department. My eyes go drooled and I feel like going to sleep right away. Office hours from 8.30 am to 5.30 pm to just stared at those papers really make my day worsen.

Fortunately, there is Shafitra sitting beside, her desk is next to me, thanks God for that. I spent most of my time in the office chatting with her and discussed few things about the accouting thingy. Well, lucky me to get her to work with in this department because she is kind of clever girl.

I would always wait for the clock to reach 5.30 pm, it is like counting down the time to go back with the hope to have better time while on the way back. I haven't tell you guys how my first day started. It was horrible to be remembered.

Not my first time to KLCC but the first time to climb all the way up to level 15 to report duty and to be attached to work with Finance Department of MITCO Japan at level 14, tower 1. Kak Farhana fetched 10 of us to the top. Before to be allowed to enter the tower offices, you will be needed to take pass at the counter. Then you scanned your card and you will be allowed to enter.

Not that easy, after that there is a check up like one usually need to go through when he is at the airport. Your bag will be scanned in and out like x-ray and you will walk through a door with detector sensor. When it comes to my turn, guess what..the thing sounds three time, beep beep beep. Owh nooo, what have I done, My name is Syafiq Izzat and I'm not a terrorist.

Okay, it was because of my handphone, coins and keys. Ok fine! What's next? Sebab bunyi beep macam2 tu I was late and tertinggal. Kak Farhana and 8 others dah naik while me and acap like orang gila cari diorang. We don't know the elevators system of KLCC is complex and so we just took on any elevator we could find there.

Guess what, the elevator that we were in..there's no button for level 15. Omaigott, it is so weird and absurd. We decided to go down to the ground and lucky us, Kak Farhana was there looking for us. She said elevators in KLCC are divided to odd and even numbers for different levels. Damn weird!

During lunch break, for the first day I ate at KLCC's food court. Nasi Ayam and a can of soya drink costs me RM8!! Ok fine, I could have the same menu at only RM4.50 if I'm in UTP now. For the second day, I ate outside with other colleagues and it costs almost the same, RM7.30. Babi! Penat je jalan keluar jauh2, harga lebih kurang je dengan food court.

I have so many things to tell lagi ni..nanti I update some more.

view from my house, cantik kan tower tm tu..yang colour biru tu la vista angkasa apartment, dah macam berek polis je aku tengok, sedih

Bencinya Israeeeeelll, arghhh..geramm

2010-06-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

Tadi tengok-tengok yahoo news pasal Israel serang aid ship to Gaza tu la kan, lepas tu ade la makhluk-makhluk yang komen-komen kat bawah article tu.

Mula-mula suka la tengok sebab ramai komen kutuk Israel

Lepas tu ade setan dua ekor yang kutuk Palestine, omaigott! keji betul diorang ni

Ni ade lagi yang komen sangat lahanat ok, kurang ajarr..Siape yang serang
siape dulu kan, Boleh pulak kate "Good job Israel, stay strong"
Ni spesis bangang orang panggil, bodoh sangat

Masing-masing komen sangat irritating ok, geram sangat bile bace
yang sokong-sokong Israel ni, grrrr..ni nasib lah ade yang backing..yeayy Zaza

p/s: yeay, dah sampai rumah..esok and lusa nak shopping sakan beli barang untuk intern nanti, exam sangatlah susah okie, hancur lah harapan untuk DL ;(

I feel like going far away from UTP and pretend like there is no examination

2010-05-15T08:56:00.000-07:00

I feel so depressed! May be I put too much stress on me, tskk..
forcing myself to study like there is no tomorrow. But still when
others ask few questions, I would gaze and take a long while to
answer them, doesn't matter how much I have covered but
then still tak tahu itu ini. Always need to refer notes. tskkk
The nerve that conquered me all day long and whispered
as if the first paper would be tomorrow is not helping langsung.
Well, it is a day after tomorrow..it doesn't make much difference
isn't. Oh my god, please help me at this very time.
I need to score hard for Advanced Database Systems,
I see a chance to score for this subject and hence
I hope I can do it well. I just need to make a review on
every topics covered and make sure to understand well.
I can't lie to myself, just be honest to yourself please Syafiq Izzat!!
Back to years when I was in school, mum had always insist
me to ask questions if I don't understand. She said shy to
ask is BODOH SOMBONG. Well, she got point there! So, I
better ask others if I don't understand any, don't keep it
but spill it out..oh yeahh! Go go for my first paper this Monday.
Wish me luck. I wanna have a good time in the examination hall.

Fail

2010-05-12T10:26:00.000-07:00

Fail satu paper dah, gulpp! Habis la pointer semester ni, macam mane ni? mati la aku, macam mane nak berhadapan dengan Education Sponsorship Unit (ESU), parents, kawan2 semua ni?

Ok lah, cukup lah berlakon. Cut that part off sebab aku tipu je. Final exam start pun belum. Belajar kat UTP ni boleh sakit jantung tau, ade je surprise time nak exam ni. Tengok lah final draft exam yang baru ni. First paper is scheduled on last Monday (10 May) which was the first day of study week. Logik tak exam time study week baru nak start? haiyoooo, exam unit ni kenape eh?

So, adakah semua student BIS sudah fail paper ADS? gulpp..tidak2! Ini semua kecuaian exam unit yang pandai2 tukar schedule and konfiden je label this as final draft. Dah elok letak 17 May tiba2 ubah 10 May, in a sudden pulak tu..Minggu ni untuk belajar lah, mane ade examm!!

Sudu

2010-05-11T22:07:00.000-07:00

I loathe when my belongings lost to nowhere to be traced. What make it even more bad is, when it happened over and over again. You buy one then it lost then you buy again, then this word counts again, LOST! I hate..

I lost my spoon, yeahh..no big deal pun but the annoying part is to buy another one, malas aku nak redah pergi rahmath for the sake of a spoon. So, yesterday my roommate nak pinjam spoon sebab dia nak makan.

Rumet: pinjam sudu

Me: tak de, hilang la

Rumet: ala, sudu kat kitchen tu siape punya? nak pinjam kejap

Me: budak cina tu, dia guna makan pork

Tipu je sebenarnya, tak tahu pun sudu budak cina (housemate) or budak lain punya, muahaha. So off me go to tapau makanan jugak. Then sampai bilik tengok rumet tengah makan dengan spoon.

Me: eh, ko guna sudu sape tu?

Rumet: aznin

Me: oww, ala... aku nak makan dengan ape ni?

Rumet: tu sudu BABI tu ade

Okk....rumet marah, lariiiiii

Study Week is now ON

2010-05-09T09:52:00.000-07:00

It is now study week, omaigott..cepatnye time passed by. I'm so not ready for final, macam mane ni? haiyooo, but still I have to put on my best effort sebab I want Deans List so badly for this semester. Chaiyok2! Of course la I want something memorable before going for internship nanti. Ni haa timetable final exam, macam ok jugak la gap dia dari last semester yang macam lahanat tu.

First Week

Second Week

Last Week

Yang bikin gua panas tu kan, why lepas paper Corporate Ethics, esok tu terus paper Internet Programming? Bagi la gap 1-2 hari..ish2, dah la IP tu susah.

Name je study week, tapi tak start lagi study ni, mati la..risau ni, budak2 lain sah2 la dah start study, budak2 UTP ni semua gigih2, menggelepur masing2 nak jumpa lecturer tanye soalan2 past year semua..tskkk. Relax2 la wey. Sometimes kan, I think it is a waste je to sit for exam semua ni sebab we just study for the sake of examination je. Knowledge yang dapat tak la seberapa pun, nanti time training baru la realize yang tak tahu buat itu ini, sebab kite sebelum ni study untuk exam, tak apply pun lepas tu.

Risau sangat for internship ni, dah la start 7 june, last exam paper habis 1 june..ada 6 hari je nak prepare untuk internship semua. Huwaaa, I need to do revision dulu in finance ni sebab I got finance department. Baju2 semua tak shop lagi. Rumah sewa tak dapat lagi. Plan je yang dah banyak. Nak shopping kat pavillion la, nak main ski time my birthday la, macam2 lah. Macam duit internship tu banyak sangat je..Cakap pasal study week ni, tak start study pun lagiiiii. Ok, kena start by nowww. Eh esok la start, sekarang kan dah pukul 2 pagi, tidur dulu lah, hehehe.. Esok kena start study!!! Yeahhh, study! Ok bye, good nite

Could life be more pleasant?

2010-05-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

1. This week is the last week before study week, jadi banyaklah presentation and project due semua. And minggu ni sangat malas ok nak pergi kelas, especially Corporathe Ethics tu.

2. Sangat kecewa sebenarnya dengan PCS, presentation semalam sangatlah disappointing, ingat nak redo tapi tak boleh. Ok fine.

3. Projek Internet Programming sangat memeningkan, macam mane nak buat add cart and then it appears at another page (form) eh. Dah dapat tahu markah test, test 1 dah agak pun..memang teruk! 12/20 je okk, terasa sangat bodoh di situ. Nasib lah test 2 dapat 18/20, so average marks adalah 15/20. Nasib baik okk, kalau tak skor test 2 tu mati gua.

4. Macam mane ye nak skor MIS ni? Susah la nak menghafal-hafal ni, first test gua dapat 26/40 je kot. Aishhh, khamis ni second test..6 chapters pulak tu cover, tak study lagi ni, mati gua.

5. Advanced Database Systems (ADS) macam best pulak kan, kihkihkih..aku memang suka database2 ni walaupun ADS ni memang susah gila. First test adalah sangat bernasib baik ok sebab dapat 38/40. Second test that day sangat susah and I don't hope for good result sangat.

6. Corporate Ethics adalah membosankan, yess I have to say this. Bukan lecturer yang tedious, tapi the subject itself. Perlu ke belajar ethics2 ni, please la..Test that day hanya dapat 28/40, kecewa ok. Dah la ade satu test je for this subjectt.

7. I'm not into economics la I guess because I don't have interest langsung. Orang lain semangat je present tadi sebut2 pasal ekonomi negara semua. Aku langsung tak paham okk, sangat. Tests sumpah aku rasa dapat teruk..tskk

8. I got my new IC, last weekend balik rumah and drove myself to Bertam to collect my new IC, tak suka IC baru sebab lighting kurangg, huhh..hihi, bajet kulit cerah kan

9. Dinner dengan family kat luar to celebrate mum's birthday and went out for shopping at Jusco Perai..too bad I don't give her any present for her birthday.

10. I didn't go to Techies Dinner bukan sebab boikot okk. I have my own reasons (alasan sebab balik rumah logik tak?), tapi now I have to say that agak regret tak pergi sebab orang kata dinner this time best, pfftt

11. Still looking for house to be rented around KL. Mati laa, bulan 6 dah nak intern tapi rumah still tak jumpa. Merempat tepi jalan la macam ni, aishhh..hari tu dah dapat apartment tapi melepas sebab dah ade orang bayar deposit dulu, geramm

12. Next week adalah study week, I'm longing for this, hehe..first paper will be on 17th of May and last paper on 1st June..fuhhh, jauhnya gap. Lambat lagi nak habis sem ni

13. It's 5th of May!! Happy Birthday rumet, hihihi..dah tua ko, patut la nampak kedut2 semua, muahaha

Jalan-jalan

2010-04-19T10:38:00.000-07:00

I had enough vacations, sekarang masa untuk serius study walaupun mood untuk study tak jugak datang. Cakap pasal vacation, bukanlah vacation sangat pun..like a road trip je. Last wednesday went to KLCC for gamelan discovery. Terima kasih la rudy sebab ajak pergi kan, tiket masuk memang dah free. Satu tiket katanya berharga RM40 la jugak, mahal ye tambah2 lagi untuk tengok show gamelan yang hanya lah sejam saje. Patutlah bukan main ketat lagi dress code nak masuk dewan filharmonik Petronas tu. Sneakers yang aku pakai ni pun not allowed, diorang suruh tukar dengan kasut hitam yang provided kat bawah. Alaaahh, macam ade VVIP sangat je kat situ nak usha2 guest yang datang, sangat tak paham ok motif untuk dress code semua ni. Bukannya aku pakai selipar, sneakers okk..adidas lagi, pfttt..Tapi kan bila masuk dewan filharmonik tu rasa cantik sangat. Dengan lampu2 all over the ceilings and it is kecik je, comel sangat and bertingkat-tingkat. Owh tak cakap pun pergi KLCC naik ape kan. Mula2 ingat naik bas UTP, tapi tup2..naik bas lain. BAS CATAR! Wahhh, nightmare tahu tak naik bas yang bergegar-gegar tu for 3 hours lebih. Terus teringat cerita rombongan Cik Kiah ke sukan komanwel, muahaha..Air-conds pulak tak berape nak sejuk kan, meroyan la semua kat dalam tu, eh..ke aku sorang je? Malam tu time nak balik baru lah sejuk sikit and diorang pasang movie dalam bas. Movie pulak tak boleh blah, cerita vampire ke ape entah, tapi yang tak famous lah..Seram kot malam2 letak cerita macam tu. So, solutionnya mestilah paksa diri tidur. Anyway show gamelan tu sangat la high class and well prepared, semua main macam professional. Kalau aku time main gamelan for Co-q dulu, bukan main tergedik-gedik lagi nak ketuk benda alah tu, nak refer notes je setiap kali ketuk. Mananye nak ketuk lagi nak ingat melody dia lagi.

Cuti 3 hari sebab Isnin Perak cuti, so sangat la bosan and semalam pergi Teluk Senangin dengan meeda, aznin, qura, and teha. Tak plan pun nak pergi actually, time lunch dengan meeda pukul 1 tu tetiba je meeda ajak pergi pantai. Then ape lagi, ajak2 yang lain and pukul 2.15 zasss terus ke Teluk Senangin. Best ohh sebab lama gila tak lepak2 pantai ni. Dah la semalam tak berapa nak panas, redup2 je..molek sangat lah tu..Lepas photoshoot and makan2 semua terus pergi Giant Sri Manjung, shopping2 sikit then pergi karoeke nearby Giant tu. Wahhhh, best ok karoeke..my first time sebenarnya, muahaha.. kampung sangat kan. Lepas 2 jam berkaroeke kat situ, dalam kol 9 malam cam tu, pergi dinner dekat shabu-shabu, tempat steamboat. Famous ok tempat ni, bersepah je budak2 utp kat situ. Ingatkan tak ramai..dah rase macam makan kat kafe V5 pulak. Ok jugak la food kat situ and murah kalau nak dibandingkan dengan steamboat Moven Peak kat Ipoh tu, cekik darah je tahu. Owhh, lain kali nak pergi shabu-shabu, tak nak dah Moven Peak, hehe..Lepak2 kat situ sampai dah pukul 11 lebih and sampai UTP dah midnight. Best sangat, dapat pergi pantai, shopping, karoeke and makan besar. Complete! So sekarang kena back to business, study! Owhh, malasnya..

I miss my..

2010-04-16T02:21:00.000-07:00

I miss my old days, I bet everyone would miss their younger days at least once in a lifetime. Once is too little, I would say at least for 8 to 10 times. Still, it is too little isn't? How life has driven me this far, get me to know every inch of this wide world better than I did last 20 years. How matured I have been now although my siblings would say I'm no more than a secondary school lad. Ignore them, they envy with me because I always look younger for people at my age. *a boasting laugh* Every time I wake up in the morning, the first breath would be the best give ever. Luxury stuffs would not be valuable if you find yourself in the another world. I would always remind me to have a better day than before because we never know whether we would still be given the 'gift' the next day.

I teach myself to appreciate every single moment I walked through. Time is cruel, there will be no second chance. If there is, it would not be pleasing like the one we first had. I had a very compelling moment when I was kid. Compelling here means how innocent I was since I don't have to indulge with complicated things I'm facing right now, sometimes less works better. I miss the time I went for kindergarten with my grandma aside. She would never left me because she knew how dependent I was. I went for kindergarten in Pekan Darat (my grandma's place) and I'm happy to say that currently, my family is staying here next to her house. Sireh pulang ke gagang. I'm back to the place once my childhood flourished; get to see the place I used to bicycle and play around. This is the best thing one could ask for.

I thank God for everything; for giving me life, family, education, friends and others. I really miss my childhood days, how pleasing life was on that time. You don't have to mess around with books, notes or whatsoever printed stuffs that will drive you to bonkers. All you have in your head is playing. I realize that life without education is like a villain. You have no importance to anybody. I try to digest my grandma's words to my head; my both grandmas. They always want to see me succeed in life, they are like my foster mums who taught me every single thing. I love them and would always pray the best for them. I miss my days with them as well. How time has grown, I'm a big boy now..no longer their littles boy.

p/s: Sometimes I think time is too damn fast, it plundered evertyhing before I could strike them into my memory

Syafiq Izzat membebel

2010-04-12T06:34:00.001-07:00

Dah lame tak tulis post panjang-panjang, so kali ni nak membebel puas-puas sebab lepas ni may be dah tak de mase nak tulis lagi. Eh, bukan tulis..taip sebenarnya. Sekarang rasa lega sikit sebab commitment untuk event semua dah habis. Show Tronoh Theatre Shop (TTS), Bangsawan Tuah Jebat dah pun habis dengan jayanya, clap2. Seronok oh masuk TTS ni sebab dia macam lain sikit (ke banyak?) dengan event-event lain. Dalam show ni, I'm part of the management crew in charge untuk set-set semua. Tak berani lah nak cuba jadi pelakon sebab I know I'm not given with that talent, nanti semua audience gelak pulak sebab I don't have big voice untuk dilontarkan. Eventhough mula-mula tu memang penat and frust sebab meeting pun mesti tiap2 hari, petang and malam pulak tu. Tapi lame-lame dah macam best pulak, tanya la my roommate berapa kali dah I'm groaning sebab malas nak pergi Multipurpose Hall for meeting and training. Selalu je mengeluh and mengomel but now tak perlu lagi, hehe..sebab show dah habis. Suka sangat mase show hari Sabtu and Ahad lepas bila ramai audience suka dengan show Tuah Jebat ni, rase puas. Tapi aku tak lah menyumbang ape sangat pun. Bila tukar dari set gua ke istana, jelas dengar bunyi from audience macam, "whoaa"..means diorang suke dengan set tu, hehe..Good job lah semua orang! Memang honestly aku suka tengok set-set tu, nampak cantik sangat. Ok lah kan sebab show ni tak de lah besar mane tapi dapat buat set-set yang cantik. Ramai yang puji lepas habis show malam Sabtu tu.
I have to admit yang memang I did learn something new from TTS ni, macam-macam. Sangat banyak untuk disenaraikan. Next semester I'm going for internship so tak dapat lagi lah bersama TTS. This semester pun ade satu show je, Tuah Jebat..tapi tak pe lah, at least I got experience. Suka tengok lakonan semua pelakon TTS, hebat2 kan semua. Sesiapa yang tengok show ni perasan tak ade tombak-tombak lembing cucuk dari platform singgahsana sultan? Aku lah yang jolok-jolok benda alah tu, hahaha..Aku dengan E lah yang semangat duduk dalam kotak sempit tu dari awal scene 6 tu untuk jolok2 dari bawah. Siapa yang tahu cerita Tuah Jebat ni mesti tau kan ade babak orang kampung jolok lembing dari lantai istana. Well, it is more or less adapted into the scene. Banyak sangat kerja untuk show Tuah Jebat ni sebenarnya, set pun dah involve berapa meter kain. Banyak jenis kain pulak tu, scene gua lah, istana, kamar permaisuri and kampung. Anyway, memang berbaloi lah masuk TTS this semester! suka sangat. Good job untuk semua pelakon dan crew Bangsawan Tuah Jebat.

Cukup lah story pasal TTS, move on to my life. Owh sedih, rase macam banyak yang tak kena. Banyak sangat masalah nak difikirkan sebenarnya. This week kena setel kan lab 6 ADS, prepare untuk lab test and kuiz MIS. PCS pulak tinggal satu lagi presentation, persuasive..still thinking tajuk ape yang nak dipresentkan, kalau boleh nak something yang totally different but yet sangat intrigue. Masih belum ade idea lagi. I think I need to do something la untuk insafkan diri sikit. I have too much joy to the point sangat jauh dari tuhan sebenarnya. Rasa berdosa sangat tapi still repeating the same mistake. Selalu fikir pasal mati sekarang ni tahu tak, risau sangat kalau-kalau tak sempat taubat macam mane, wasiat pun belum buat lagi macam mane? nanti berebut pulak adik-beradik nak ambik my Blackberry tu macam mane. Aishh, solat subuh dah berape kali tinggal in a row. I'm dah too far from the light sebenarnya, that's why I have to keep myself reminded to stay on the right path. Banyak betol obstacles tau. Ya Allah, tolong lah hamba mu ini supaya kembali ke pangkal jalan. Masalah yang ade kat dunia ini datang dari Allah and so, kite kena lah minta pertolongan dariNya kembali supaya dapat permudahkan semuanya untuk kita lalui. Okk, insaf sekejap. Kalau dekat rumah, dapat la insaf sikit sebab ade tazkirah percuma ye. Lambat sikit nak pergi Friday prayer, merasa lah khutbah Jumaat dari mak. Dah tak payah susah-susah pergi masjid, tapi still kena pergi. Wajib kan. And sekarang I'm so worry pasal my obligation semua, macam solat yang aku buat selama ni sah and diterima Allah ke tidak. Sebab we never know our mistakes kan macam rukuk tak sempurna, belum lagi bacaan- bacaan dalam solat. Entah kenape benda-benda macam ni selalu spinning in my head, twirling. Tapi still tak refer buku panduan solat, terus je solat macam biase. Oh my God! Berdosa sangat ni. And kalau baca Al-Quran, betol ke aku baca tajwid semua ni. Lame kot tak practise baca sejak foundation. Sekarang baru nak belek-belek balik.

Itu pasal agama, sekarang pasal relationship dengan orang sekeliling. Dah macam tak ade significant rasanye. Semua member time foundy pun entah tercampak ke mana. Susah betol nak jumpa. My life sangat la bosan ok kalau tak join mane2 event. Tak de siape nak ajak keluar hang out Ipoh ke, mane-mane ke..sedih kan? Tak pe, nanti next semester dah nak going for intern, I have new surrounding and friends to make. Lantak laah regardless of what happened while I'm studying here. Sebab lonely kadang-kadang tu makes me think balik, whether the decision to study in UTP was a wise choice. Boleh je pilih TESL dulu, lagi best kot. Tapi decision has been made, nak buat macam mane. When I told mum about this, she suggests me untuk amik KPLI lepas habis study in UTP. Oh my God, that is beyond imaginary, macam sia-sia je aku ambik course BIS kat UTP ni sebab nanti nak ambik ijazah perguruan KPLI tu pulak. What can I say is there is no turning back, just go on with life. BIS pun BIS lah, sampai ke tua pun kena kerja dalam course ni. Irony kan, sebab dari kecik nak jadi cikgu English tapi last-last masuk UTP. Well, money matters. Siape suruh elaun cikgu cibai sangat. Tapi sekarang elaun2 budak KPLI dah tinggi tau, menyesal decline offer dulu. Ingat senang ke nak dapat. Proses same je macam educamp nak masuk UTP. Ingat lagi mula-mula sampai institut perguruan tu kena buat english essay, lepas tu go for individual interview then last sekali group interview pulak. Aishh, same je proses dengan UTP, dah la elaun lagi banyak, dapat pergi UK pulak tu..Tak pe lah, nak buat macam mane, benda dah jadi kan, what I can do now is praying the best for my future. Things happened for reasons kan. I hope my brother tak kan repeat my silly mistake ni and good luck esok untuk interview JPA program oversea. All the best budak!

note of the day: how pleasant life could be if we know how to colour it well

Of my internship status

2010-04-07T05:44:00.000-07:00

Half of my prayer has been answered, I got a call from Intel Kulim asking whether I'm interested to do my internship at their company. Of course I am intrigued, with pleasure! But it's a bit too late since I have accepted offer from Petronas Mitco earlier, so I know I would have tough time dealing with SIIU if I want to decline the offer for Intel. Petronas would have bad impression on me, but well we have right to make choice, don't we. To make it even pleasant, the position in Intel is in Manufacturing department, more likely handling with Database, I like! Just like what I want, as long as there is no such thing like programming, everything would be fine. Finance department in Mitco is also quite a catch, I'm so in dilemma. People said Mitco is doing good and the internship there would be awesome. But still the main issue here is far from home and the living cost is high, 1k a month won't be enough. Have to wait for next week to know whether I'm choosen for the placement in Intel, really looking forward it. Please pray that I will get the placement there, half of my prayer has been answered..but how about another half?

Paper toy

2010-04-04T04:45:00.000-07:00

Comel kan paper toy kat atas ni, hihi.. this was part of activities included in CRAFT or known as Creative Art Festival held on last 22-24 March. Teka yang mane satu my papertoy? Yeshh, yang paling buruk tu lah, hahaha..comel la benda2 ni, geram tengok. Macam nak pijak2 kan.

Yang menang adelah ketiga-tiga papertoy kat bawah ni, sangat kreatif dan cantik. Rajin betol nak colour2 and ubah papertoy tu. Well, the effort seems to be worth la sebab menang kan, tahniah2.

Winner

First runner up

Second runner up

Just an update

2010-04-03T09:34:00.000-07:00

So many things to talk about but I don't have much time to spit them all. Last time, I was kind of busy with CRAFT thingy, need to find sponsors for the event and I ended up with none but members in the department managed to approach few. It was not that bad as there was a rush to find them in only 2 weeks time. There were two sponsors, Animasia and Maestro Publication, Maestro sponsored for magazines. The company gave me a call asking how many magazines do we need. I said 200 copies would be enough and they agreed to supply 200 copies of Intrend magazine. The next day, there was another call asking whether we want to have Top Gear magazine as well. Never say no to free items. So, there were 200 copies of Intrend and Top Gear each. My room was quite a mess with bundles of magazines, 400 of them altogether. How generous those people are as one Intrend costs RM7.50 while Top Gear costs RM10.00 each.

I haven't yet tell about this bus accident, don't I? I was on the way back to UTP boarding on a bus and out of a sudden, there was this fool car which crashed into the left side of the bus just right where I sitted. Crazy driver of Tronoh, don't you see there was a bus on the road where you were about to cut in? Thanks God no one was injured and it was only a minor one.

This weekend is kinda busy, there is a trip from UiTM Shah Alam from this Accounting Club or best known as Abaccs if i'm not mistaken. The Public Relation members of Syntech are the one who in charge with this trip. So, we have to arrange everything for the 3 days trip. Tomorrow would be the last day, today was such a hectic day with tour around UTP, simple game, video montage and tour to Lumut. Anyway, it is a new experience and it is good to learn something from the trip. I met Armi Arfifi as well since he's one of the participant. He is my ex-schoolmate of MRSM Gerik and Beseri. How time has changed, he is quite a piece compared to the time he was in school. The most important part is, how could he be so talkative like that? Oh my god, what has got into him. No wonder he is one of the MPP in UiTM Shah Alam, good for him.

I wonder when my new IC would be ready. I don't want to bring along that temporary IC which size is about half of the A4 paper. Urghh, troublesome! Talking about internship, I have accepted the offer from Petronas Mitco. I don't know whether it is a good choice or not but if I get other offers around Penang I would dump Mitco. I would go for place around my home so that I can save money for my own use. Hope everything would be ok and runs smooth.

Come on, cheer up! We can't go back to the past

2010-03-19T20:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I don't know how my life is, it could be distraught and pleasing at the same time. But mostly I would say distraught will always be the prominent one. So many things need to be settled down. Internship thingy makes thing becomes more complicated. Tests, assignments and projects are like usual, never get less. It will always increasing and if only it can be measured, KLCC would not be the tallest one in Malaysia, my works would preceding. Yes, how hyperbola it is.

As I'm growing up, I could sense something in me is getting fade. It is a passion and tendecy to do things. If before I would enjoy studying like bonkers but now for me, it is a grind. I lost my passion and I know I have to get it back before it's too late. The MIS first test last time was a terrifying moment, I can not be very sure to answer every single question. Every questions look awkward. Yeahh, I admit that I had put only some effort into it because the week before mid-semester was busy like crowded cars on a road in a crowded city with crowded people. Huhh

Sometimes, I got a thought like, 'When I'm graduating and find myself a job, it would be the greatest moment ever'. I want to finish my study as quick as possible but I know later on when I work, I might have different thought like, 'Bosannya kerja, I wish I can go back to my student's life'. Everyhting seem to be not in the way we want it to be. The only concern is how we enjoy our very moments and how to decorate it well to be more pleasing.

We will never be contented of life. Once we at school, we would want to finish schooling as soon as possible. But then when we come to university, we would miss our school and have the thought university is not that fun compared to school. And so, we want to finish studying in university as quick as possible and go for job. Once we at job, we would miss university's life. This will never stop even when we got married things will be much complicated. Need to manage the bills, maintenance, wife, children, house and job itself. Belum masalah2 lain lagi. As we think our life is a mess now, it would be much more messier later on. So, just enjoy what you are doing right now.

How my life is

2010-03-16T20:18:00.000-07:00

I'm screwed up, mati la aku..A call from Infineon Technologies ruined my day,

I don't expect them to ask every detail about my study. Owhh, I have to say that I'm not prepared for it, I think I had just blew it up. Sayonara Infineon, perhaps you're not meant to be my internship workplace. Ok now, need to wait for other to approach and reply my email. Cepat la guys, I need placement ni. Intel ni langsung tak de feedback, haiyooo..tak pe2.

Now, dekat rumah ni..cuti mid-sem. Next week balik lagi, for my brother's convo pulak. Perlu ke balik eh? Hmm, tengok lah nanti macam mane. Ni haa, tak story lagi pasal my brother yang dapat result SPM last week kan. Well, he got 8A's out of 9. 3A+, 2A, 3A- and one black sheep of B+. Omg! B+ tu dah dekat A kan, sayang banget! Tahu tak ape yang B+ tu? Kimia?Bukan2.. Biology? Bukan2.. English? Bukan jugak. B+ itu adalah subjek Bahasa Melayu ya, rase macam nak hempuk je kepala budak ni, haiyooo..English boleh pulak kau dapat A kan.

Tak faham aku. Dah tu eksyen pulak, hari tu kat facebook, chat dengan dia in malay and dia boleh cakap, "sorry, i sound silly when i speak in malay"..ciss, dah pandai dia sekarang, hahaha..Mak sekarang sangat lah suka mengusik, cakap my brother dah exceed me in SPM, bla2..suka la mak tu, sampai suruh apply semua scholarship yang ada dekat Malaysia ni, hebat kan. And satu lagi dia bagi choice suruh my brother jadi ustaz!! Wahhh, mak ni memang.

Boleh ke budak ni jadi ustaz? menghadap komputer je 24 jam, tak tahu la kalau dia nak berdakwah online kan. And satu lagi kan, lagi la sakit hati..mak n abah suruh wan apply masuk UTP jugak, arghhhhh...ini la benda yang paling aku tak suka ni, tak kan nak satu kampus dengan budak ni, tak boleh imagine ni. Dah cakap banyak kali cakap dekat abah yang Petronas only sponsor one member in a family je. Mane boleh sponsor me and then my brother at one time.

Tapi boleh la kalau nak aku quit dari UTP kan, owhh my pleasure. Semalam dah buat IC baru, yehaaa. Tapi tak siap lagi la, kena tunggu sebulan lagi baru siap, huhuhu..Kena la pakai IC sementara sekarang yang besar gedabak, nak lipat2 masuk wallet pun susah, macam ape je. Internship macam mane ni, risau la pulak. Huhhh, tak pe2, tunggu je dulu.. and assignments berlambak-lambak ni. Huhh, tak pe2, lepas habis cuti mid-sem ni nanti buat perlahan-lahan. Tests? Errrr...bile nak study ni? huwaaaa~

We live in a circle

2010-03-07T09:08:00.000-08:00

Why bile kita nak elak dari jumpa orang tapi last sekali mesti jumpa jugak. Tak pun something lebih worse. Macam aku ade jumpa dia ni, lepas tu nak mengelak. So, ikut la jalan lain tapi lepas tu, nahh..jumpa orang lain pulak yang lagi2 la kalau boleh tak nak jumpa. We live in a circle, we can't hide from people. That's what I learn! Hey, it's 8th of March..Happy Birthday Shean!

Peneram dan Petua Nenek

2010-03-03T08:56:00.000-08:00

Tadi pergi pasar malam, eh kejap..tak pernah pun cerita pasal pasar malam dekat taman maju yang just nearby UTP ni kan. Well, sebab memang tak de sebab pun nak cerita. Tak de ape yang menarik pun. Macam jalan sampai ke penghujung jalan pun, tangan still kosong sebab tak tahu nak beli ape. Sebab semua pun macam tak berape nak best. Tapi kan tadi I found something yang lame tak makan, this so-called peneram kalau tak silap. Sedap, sebab macam crispy and tambah2 lame tak makan.

Dulu kat beseri selalu beli benda ni kat pasar malam depan maktab, dapat selonggok dengan harga seringgit. Ramai orang sanggup tunggu mak cik tu goreng benda ni.

Lepas tu tadi ade jugak beli tomato. Rumet ni haa entah kenape mengidam nak makan tomato pulak kan, hahaha..actually bukan for makan but for something else. Ingat tak yang I told that I have this book, Petua Nenek.

Dalam petua tu ade cakap macam mane nak hilangkan jerawat, guna tomato masak.

Ni petua tu cakap:

"Cucu mungkin ada cara tersendiri untuk menghilangkan jerawat. Nenek juga ada petua seumpama itu. Mudah sahaja caranya. Cuci muka cucu dengan air suam dan gosokkan muka dengan tomato masak. Biarkan ia kering di muka. Selepas itu, bilas muka dengan ~~asid~~ air suam. Selamat mencuba."

Keberkesanan nye belum diketahui, hihihi..so, sesiape yang nak cuba ni..kalau jadi ape2, atas tanggungjawab sendiri ok, hehe

This is sad

2010-02-21T20:49:00.000-08:00

This is the hardest thing in my life, to lose someone you care about. This is so much bothering me, I love you grandma. I burst into tears alone in the room earlier in the morning. Tok Som has just passed away, the fact that I would deny the most. The pain truth I have to endure.

I have made too many mistakes, wrong doings to her and I'm so disgruntled because she's gone before I could seek for her forgiveness. She lived about 14 months with us. Whenever she asked me to buy her something and I felt reluctant to, I would give excuses. That was bad of me.

Last time, when I last met her during CNY break, she looks weak and lost her appetite. She seems to be quiet than before, she is not talkative like usual. People could tell there's something wrong with her. When I was about to leave home, she asked when will I come back lagi. I said bulan 3. But now, I know I will never meet her again.

And before I could make my move out of her room, she cried and groaning. She's complaining about her condition. I know she must be bored lying on the bed 24 hours. I wish she can walk like before but she just can't. I don't know what to do, just soothing her down and kissed her before I leave home.

Mum's message was a strike. I woke up late this morning and found that there's one unread message. It was shocking when mum said tok has passed away last night. Why mum or dad didn't tell me earlier? I slept at 2.30 am last night, at that time she's already breathless.

The message was sent at 3 am. I was sleeping at that time and just noticed about the message later when I woke up at 10 something in the morning. I gave mum a call but she didn't answer. I asked Kak Yong by messaging her. She said it's true. She's also not at home, she returned back to UiTM earlier yesterday.

Same goes to Bang Jan, he's in Shah Alam. He called me in the morning and marah2 sebab tak tahu about the news. Well, me pun. I just got a simple message. Dik Wan je la yang ade kat rumah. This boy is lucky.

This is so unexpected, I thought I would be able to meet her again in March during the mid sem break but it's too late. She will not be there for me. She leaves us too fast. I want to kiss her for the last time but she was buried at 11 am. I could not make it.

Dad said no need to go home because the funeral is over. Plus, I have classes and presentation this week. So, I decide to go back this Thursday because there'll be no classes on Friday. I'm so disappointed and to this point, I feel awfully guilty. I was not there during her funeral.

I will miss her a lot. She has touched so many lives during her days. A-Fatihah.

Snippet of facebook. Kak Yong told me tok is not in a good condition 2 days before she passed away.

No remorse!

2010-02-20T19:09:00.000-08:00

Taraaaa, I have applied for my intership placement. I choose Intel and Mattel, Intel is familiar, Mattel? I'm sure none of you have heard about this company ever since. Both pun in Penang.
I wanna go for Petronas Dagangan, Khazanah Nasional, Shell Global Solution or Cari Gali but semua pun located in KL. Far away from home and means that the cost of living will be higher. Dah la kena naik public tranport everyday. That's a hassle! Kalau Penang, I can drive to workplace everyday. My mum won't bother much. Whatever it is, I hope it will be a right choice. No remorse later on.

I miss my school days

2010-02-19T07:50:00.000-08:00

I don't have the gut to update blog actually however because it's a tedious night and can't help myself from doing the assignments. So, I should start back blogging tonight.

Last time when I went back for Chinese New Year holidays for a short break, I was like gobsmacked to see the real mess at the compound. Omg! This is such an eyesoring view!

There was a clearance since our house in Kepala Batas is under renovation and so, the remaining stuffs have to be taken to this house. Urghh!! But, the best part is when to found some papers and books that I have been longing for, it is such a reminiscent of my school's life. Awesome!

I found this! My Folio Bahasa Melayu. It was 5 years back when I was in Form 4. Cantik kan my folio, semangat sangat buat folio colour2 macam ni dulu.

Then I found my add math's exercise answer paper. Wah, rindunye..and together with it, there is Payeh's paper. Alamak, macam mane boleh sesat ni? Ahahaha, kantoi lah selalu pinjam jawapan dia kan. Lama tak tengok tulisan budak ni, lebar2 tulisan dia macam orangnye jugak la kan, muahaha

Next, I found this. The graph I used to make every time I got my test papers back. This one mase sekolah rendah, that's why it looks real ugly. Bad handwriting!

Gali2 lagi and jumpa segala test papers. This one subjek Bahasa Melayu time form 4 or 5 entah, tak ingat. The interesting part is, I just got 6 marks over 30 for rumusan. Ingat tak paper 2 kan ade rumusan dulu. Bodoh sangat nih, sampai dapat 6 over 30. Wahhhh! hahaha

Tengok cikgu Khalijah dah marah, siap tulis, "Degil!! tidak lebih 120 patah perkataan". Tapi kan, lepas tu afterwards..for rumusan terus skor okk.

Taraaa..dapat 28 over 30 for rumusan, yeayyy!

Ini adalah test paper kimia. Ye, sangat teruk! dapat half je. Saye memang bengap kimia. Setiap kali test range2 mesti dalam tu lah. Owhhh, bencii!

Lepas tu jumpa buku seeds. Budak MRSM Gerik tahu lah pasal ni, a kind of english program lah kirenye dimana bila certain time tengah belajar dalam kelas, tiba2..ade minah salleh speaking. Itu adalah suara tape! And mase tape dipasang, semua kena listen betol2 okk. Faham kan. Tiap2 hari pun macam tu, bosann2 tapi sekarang saye rindu suara tape yang vogue tu.

Lepas tu lagi, I found this novel Konserto Terakhir yang used time Form 5 dulu. Dah lame cari, at last jumpa jugak. I want to read it for another time. Gila best okk cite dia, sangat sedih! Sekarang still cari novel Meniti Kaca time Form 1 tapi tak jumpa, huhh.

Selongkar2 lagi and I found this one! Wahhhh, buku Petua Nenek. I was in Standard Five when I'm interested to paste the Petua Nenek snippets in the newspaper into the exercise book. Banyak la jugak, macam2 petua ada. Cerahkan kulit, hilangkan jerawat, hilangkan kutu, lebatkan rambut n tambah susu badan. Yang last tu macam tak perlu je, muahahaha.

Lepas tu jumpa jugak my notepad kesayangan yang banyak nota2 penting simpan kat situ. Yang bestnye, ade mandarin words sekali dalam tu yang Shean ajar dulu2..Shean, wo xiang jian ni..ni zai zuo shen me? miss u, sing kan paw pei!

It was bad

2010-02-12T05:50:00.000-08:00

It was bad, I know..tskk..I could tell by my stiff moves. It was embrassing and horrible. I always thought I can do everything. I can do this and I can do that. Yesterday has taught me a valuable lesson that I am not good at this, dancing.

I thought dancing is not that hard, just soften your body, make your moves and everything will come along. Only now, I learn it needs more than that. Went to audition last night for the UTP Performing Art Group or best known as UPAG. They are looking for dancers.

The intention was to accompany Syafril for the audition, but then those existing UPAG dancers asked me to try. I always want to join this kind of dancing thingy, but I never got a chance. And so, from just watching Syafril, I better go along with the audition.

Nahh, this guy teaches me the steps of dancing, zapin and joget. It was tough, for a first timer like me. I kept asking him, "macam mane tadi?", "lepas ni macam mane?", "macam ni ke?" Luckily, he is patient enough, if not he would slaps me right away.

Owhh, I am slow at this, crawling to catch up the steps, lembab. It was quite absurd to go along with steps while the music is turned on. I don't have any experience in dancing like Syafril, it was easier for him to learn the steps as he already knows the basic moves of zapin, joget and etc.

When the audition started, everything turned to be even more worse. Tunggang terbalik, malu gila kot. I always want to be a dancer but perhaps I don't have the talent eventhough the guy who teaches me the steps keep telling me, "tak pe, diorang (the existing dancers) pun dulu macam ni jugak".

But I'm sure no one has starts their way that bad like I was. Owhh, I should have just accompany Syafril instead of taking part. But at least now I know my capability. Confirm2 la tak dapat audition semalam gila teruk kot. Bersepah habis.

advice of the day: never expect that you can do everything

when finally learn that you are good at nothing.

Ini tak boleh, Itu tak boleh..Habis tu ape yang boleh?

2010-02-07T06:29:00.000-08:00

Geramnye bile tengah bosan macam ni, lepas tu terfikir nak download few songs and lepas click few times, tetibe keluar benda alah ni, "internet policy violation". Entah kenapa la nak block2 benda ni, bukannye filthy pun. Sakitnye hati, owhh..So, sekarang nak buat ape? Esok Isnin, ade kelas..owh tidak! Spare me more time please..tapi this Friday balik for CNY..owh suka!!!!!

The unwelcomed guy

2010-02-05T07:38:00.000-08:00

Cilaka! haram jadah betol. Ko ingat ko tu hebat sangat la eh. Sakit hati tahap gaban ni, I'm so pissed off. My mood is ruined in a splash, my night is such a bleak. This is all because of this guy.

You shouldn't come to interrupt me just now.

You don't have the right. You have just killed my passion for tennis, a big congrates!! I'm quitting. Out of a sudden je datang dari entah celah mane and interrupting my match. It was such satu tamparan hebat i would say. Ade aku kenal ko anyway?

Guy: (Tanpa bg salam or greeting) Dah lame main tennis?

Me: (I was about to say that I'm in this since in form 2 but I know something was not right so I lied) Hmm..baru jugak la

Guy: Ooo, salah tu adik main tadi. Cara pegang pun salah

Me: (I was like.....speechless) Huhh

Guy: (Grabbed my racquet and show the right way of playing) Macam ni cara nak main yang betol ( After about 10 minutes of demo, he passed the racquet back to me)

I could only nodded all the time whenever he told me the 'skill'. He is older than me, I should respect him anyway. He must has the experience kan. But honestly, I don't feel comfortable. I feel awkward all of a sudden thinking who's this guy anyway?

While I was playing, his eyes were on me. When I hit like this, he said, , "salah tu, tu macam main badminton" and when I hit like that, he said, "salah tu, tu macam main ping pong". Babi betol. Sakit hati sangat, dia tu memang teror habis la kot, nak komen orang ikut suka hati.

Dah tu bawa anak2 dia sampai 4 orang tengok aku main, entah ape la budak2 tu dok mengumpat kat belakang tu. Lepas tu ade la pulak budak sorang ni dok join sekaki tengok kan. Ingat ni show ape? Lady Gaga??? Haa??? It was a longest and embrassing 1o minutes of my life. Cilaka!

Lepas tu, terus lesap entah pergi mane. But I noticed he has a badminton racquet together with him. Pelik betol, tetibe je datang court tennis merely to critic me? He's spying on me kot earlier.
Whatever it is, you have ruined my day. That's it!

p/s: tetibe je meeda gtalk tanye "ok ke tak, jangan la marah2".. "ko pergi la buang air besar, buang toksin semua, nanti ok la tu" . I could only bear to laugh, ape kaitan buang air besar?concern la pulak minah ni kan

It's Friday!

2010-02-04T19:36:00.000-08:00

Omg! macam tak percaye that I'm going for intern this June. Cepatkan mase, rase macam foundation lagi, feeling2 muda baru lepas SPM kan..tup, tup..dah nak going for training. Cuak2, make things easy for me, God.

And the hunt for the new layout is officially off, sob2..malas dah nak buang masa cari layout baru. Ade je masalah, tak support ini lah, tak support itu lah..Tak boleh letak widgets banyak2 lah, and so..nah, layout lame! hahaha, problem solved.

thought of the day: kenape perlu mempercayai

yang baru sedangkan yang lama lebih memahami?

we know parents since we were born,

we know friends since our childhood,

so, why prominating friends more than parents?

think of that, bye..get to go!

It is cancelled!!!

2010-02-03T09:23:00.000-08:00

Everything happened for reasons kan. Owh geram ni, sakit hati pun ade. Penat je ok datang meeting, dari last semester kot and discuss itu discuss ini but at the end the event is cancelled. Ni yang malas nak join event2 ni, entah ape2 je la..may be it's my bad kot sebab choose to join event2 yang kecil2 macam ni. Next time kena pilih yang mega2 kot, baru la confirm tak cancel.

Pelik2, how could this happen ye. Tapi tak pe la, nak buat macam mane kan, I got another event to go in March. Kalau yang ni pun cancel, aku tak tahu lah nak buat apa. Gila meroyan la gamaknye. Owhh, tak pe la sebab diorang cakap there will be an appreciation night for committees2 yang malang ni. Let's wait and see.

my thought: pengaruh itu sangat penting.

kalau tak de pengaruh, susah betol nak join event kat sini.

semua orang pun pilih member masing2

jadi committee. Interview just sebagai syarat.

Entah ape2..

Cakap mengarut

2010-01-31T05:21:00.001-08:00

How to say this? Go away if you don't want to hear my groanings. It is just that sometimes I feel like I'm just a nobody, worthless. I don't have talent like other people have. I'm not intelligent like other students could be. I'm just me. This is sad, yeahh..I mean it. To add somemore to the list, I am not a good son, neither a good brother and even a good friend. This is much sadden.

Owhh my, could you see how miserable my life is. Everything seems to be not at the place it should stay. People would say, it is not called life if there is no such thing. But, on my second thought.. I would say my life is sucks. Can't help with that, I don't know why I said this. I'm tired of my life, perhaps. I need to chill out.

advice of the day: restrain yourself from

jealousy, you have no idea how lethal it could be

Working on something

2010-01-30T18:16:00.001-08:00

Don't worry, you are at the right blog..trying to renovate this blog, changing the layout and so on but it seems like urghhh..Macam ade yang tak kena, kan kan? I guess need to put some effort in editing the coding kot, I wish I'm good at this. Later la, I will look for other layouts kot.

I'm into editing pictures recently, this is the outcome, hahaha..fun la jugak, bile bosan tak tahu
nak buat ape, boleh try2 this thingy..anyway, those pics are the collection from foundation to 1st year undergrad. Notice the different hairstyle that I have tried. I miss my rebonded hair!

click to enlarge

advice of the day: there is nothing free in this world,

if only there is..it won't be that pleasing.

As example, like just now I found extra tennis balls left at the court,

but of course they are defective. What do you expect?

A brand new ball? X.O.X.O.

Ini zaman moden

2010-01-26T22:41:00.000-08:00

Tengah bace cerita2 panas kat satu web hiburan tadi and ade some people comment about this celebrity yang pakai tudung ala2. This guy is funny, I mean the one who reply back what this guy has said.

The comment:

Salam 1Malaysia, alamakkkkkk..pakai tudung ketinggalan zaman ler..ini zaman moden..macam mana negara nak maju..sikit2 tutup..ini tak boleh..itu tak boleh..ini haram..itu haram….wake up from ur dream….

The reply:

wahai ‘rakyat jelata merdeka’…jgnlah sibuk2 nak wat provokasi kat sini eh. dah agama ISLAM suruh cover aurah tu faham2lah. apa ko ingat yg freehair tu moden sgt ke?? so, pompuan org asli kat utan tu terlebih maju ke?? ada akal pikirlah bukan letak kat lutut.

I like the part yang, "so, pompuan org asli kat utan tu terlebih maju ke??"
Hahaha, agree with this person! orang asli yang free hair tu kirenya maju la eh?

Today sucks

2010-01-26T04:22:00.000-08:00

Second day of lectures, it was not that appealing especially the Economics class that was held in the afternoon. Ape la yang dia mencarut sorang-sorang kat depan tadi? Nothing is stick to my mind. Economics is not a kind of subject that I will adore this semester. I can tell by the 2 hours class just now.

Blame the 2 months semester break because I think it turns me to a dumb machine. Owhh, I can't go on like this. I need to change! Ya..ya..ya, there it goes, semangat bukan main tapi still remain in this comfort zone.This semester I take 6 subjects which are Advanced Database System, Economics, Internet Programming, Professional Communication Skills, Corporate Ethics and Management Information System.

There will be no MIS class this week because the lecturer is not around. *Clap2*. ADS is the continuity of the Database Systems I took earlier last 2 semesters. So, I have to recall back what I have learn earlier. Economics is the reflect of Principle of Economics that I took when I was in foundation. Internet Programming is a new stuff for this semester.

Corporate ethics & PCS, I don't know what to talk about these two. Talking about Internet Programming, I don't know what's wrong with this lecturer. He is so obey to rules and doesn't consider about students. He doesn't consider to give more space for the students who want to take this subject. Padahal boleh je minta registry tambah slot, susah sangat ke?

The worst part is, he said we can register for lab session at 4 pm. So, I wait all hours long facing the laptop to register for the lab in elearning. I wait and wait but there is still no news regarding this. So, getting fed up..make my way to PCS class and DAMN! The class for PCS is overloaded. Supposed to have 3 groups this evening and each group could have max of 25 people.

There are too many and enormous total of students enrolled for PCS and yet there are only 26 groups altogether. So, many could not take this course and perhaps we have to drop this course. It is so insane and absurd! I don't understand with the registry and management here. Everything turns to be turmoil and out of control. Sampai berebut rebut semua nak masuk kelas pun. Kesian..

p/s: This semester could be the worst of all semesters. Semua pun kena drop, so tak payah la further study, senang.

Air Asam

2010-01-23T20:24:00.000-08:00

I went back to Penang on 15th for a week since there is no update about the event. It's a waste to stay here counting days for the class to start on 25th. And yesterday I have arrived here, back in UTP. The 2 months break was fantastic and full of joys. But still i think it's not enough, haha..Feel lazy to go back to lectures, attending classes and lab.

Ok, cut that part, I have something to tell. Last time during I was in Penang, my mum and I went to this warung, nak beli lauk. I'm intrigued to order air asam drink, and mum wants it to be take-away. Ok fine.

So, I told the guy, "Air asam 2, bungkus". I thought he would go to make the drink but however, he was about already prepare nak bungkus kan air asam yang cicah ikan bakar tu! OMG! I was clueless and tell him straight away " Bukan air asam tu, tapi air asam minum" dalam sleng ala2 KL.

Ok, he got my point and then shout to other guy to make air asam, minum. OMG! And then, once more I told him, "Air asam bungkus 2, bukan minum. Ok, now he got my EXACT point! Great! It was embrassing kot, sebab other workers kat situ (mostly mak cik2 tukang masak ni) laughed and smile.

Famous kejap di situ. Owhh malu2, tapi tak pe la sebab famous kan. And I have decided to no more stopping by at that warung walaupun mak asyik cakap, "Sedap la air asam kat situ, lain kali kite pergi lagi" Owhh, nightmare!

I've learn a lesson, lain kali nak order air asam kat kedai lauk2 ni kena cakap macam ni, "Air asam minum dua, bungkus" to dodge from any misunderstanding, huhh..

Bosannn! So decided to upload few recent pictures found in my phone

2010-01-12T06:55:00.000-08:00

pic 1 & pic 2 : night day out for pizza and shopping on my birthday

pic 3 & 4 : out to pantai with family

pic 5 : it's turkey, jiran sebelah punye.. suke tengok turkey, comel!

Random talking

2010-01-11T20:25:00.000-08:00

It's a new year, it has been a hard time to climb to 2010 after what 2009 has offered earlier.
Do you know what I fear the most? It is getting older! We are now in 2010 means that unofficially I am a 21 years old lad. Damn, I hate that number. But officially, I am 20 years old and 18 days lad. Thanx god I was born in December, so that I won't be old sangat, haha.. Is that count?

Huuhhh..I don't know what to do now, I'm so bored. This house is so quiet, to the point that you could hear bunyi cengkerik kat hutan yang miles away. That sounds creepy, well..it is. But, when you know it's in the morning, you won't be afraid sangat. A bright sunny morning in Tronoh, like always. Rain is extinct in this vacant land.

I could not sleep well semalam, may be sebab I let the light to be switched on. That's the only way to get rid of this shiver all night long. They people said this place is haunted. Well, I don't believe those words sangat, but still we have to be cautious kan. Errr..

Hey, sape la yang pandai sangat suruh aku balik awal2 ni. Thanx to you coz now I'm trapped in this boredom. I thought the meeting would takes part immediately as they said we should come back on 11. But hell, there is nothing kot.

Owhh menyesal nye balik awal. I should have stay in Penang for 1 or 2 days more for shopping and jalan2. I miss Sunway Carnival Mall, Seberang Perai City Mall and Penang Megamall. I don't like shopping in Ipoh simply because there are less choices here. And the worst part is, the traffic. I mean, it is easy to get lost in here. Asal nak pergi other spots instead of Jusco mesti sesat. I would blame perancang bandar. Bersepah- sepah sangat jalan tu, roundabout lagi la.

Anyway, result will be out on Friday, 15th. Owh god, can you make me jump for joy this time although I got a nerve saying that this time, it won't be that good. Arghhh, put that aside. Hopefully, it will be promising.

p/s: ada buah kedondong, pelam, kuining and kuah rojak that I bring along from rumah..tapi tak makan pun. Ishhhh, buat penat je bawa. Okk, time to makan!

I'm back!

2010-01-11T02:30:00.000-08:00

It has been ages kan since my last post, I left this blog without any updates.
That's because I'm enjoying my every moment kat rumah and sebab connection yang macam $%& tu. Forget that part.

Heyyy..hey, hey..I'm now back in UTP, ramai lagi tak balik and now I'm alone! I hate this moment, I'm bored to death. Ni baru first day, sabar je la oi.
New semester buka on 24. Ishh, it is couple of weeks to come. What should I do in between? Errr...

Anyway talking about last semester break, I have a good time at home.
There were shoppings, road trips, out for makan2, out for jalan2 and of course there were a lot of kenduris.
I like kenduris, I have missed only few. It is quite an achievement for me. I don't know why but seems like I have start to like kenduris bit by bit.

May be because I know that I need to gain some weight.
I'm so thin to the point that relatives thought I'm the youngest in the family.
Could someone please remind them that I got one little brother! Owhh, for god's sake!
And that day ade people kat pasar tanye whether we are twins. Hellloooooo, we are three years apart okk.

He has just finished his SPM while me, going to be 2nd Year 2nd Sem student in here.
Plus, I don't think there is resemblance between us. It is way contradicted. Twins?? Tolong la,
nightmare!

I want to tell you guys about this. I got some incomes while I'm at home. It is just easy to gain money. Mum gives me RM50 if I go along with her to the mosque for Isyak prayer and a short ceramah. Could you believe that? I went to few ceramah jugak la last break and for each time I went, I got RM50! Mum is so determine. But some times, I went ikhlas jugak..not merely for money.

I got a lot more to tell but may be later I will update some more.

p/s: AJL last night was entertaining. Time could be so cruel some times. Last night I was at home watching tv with family but tonight I'm alone in this creepy and spooky room doing nothing.

Exam dah habis! The happiest person on earth? That's me

2009-11-23T21:33:00.000-08:00

Arghhhhhhhhh..sial punye soalan! geram betol dengan last paper tadi..System Analysis Design, huhh..

Dah la mase tak berape nak cukup, penat tau study tapi tak boleh jugak nak score..susah tau SAD, ade part technical and theory. No wonder la there is warning in the text book. Korang ade perasan tak? Here is the quoatation..

"WARNING: This material may be hazardous to your mental stability."

Gile tak? First time ok aku bace buku yang boleh menjejaskan otak ni. Patut la dah tak berape nak betol sikit this few days, hihi

Anyway, no more revision, no more tension2. I'm back to my normal life, normal sounds awesome. Hehh, a big thanks to my study group members. Ini lah first time berdiskusi for final examination. Before this I would prefer to study alone sebab easier to absorb. Kalau ramai2 nanti mula la start cerita. Habis cerita Mak Cik Gayah jual karipap sampai la Mak Cik Bedah jual belacan. Erkkk? Tapi kan, I just learn that it is fun to have a study group, and I'm addicted to it.

*acap tak ikut tema, selalunye tiap kali meeting, kami tetapkan tema okk..kali ni hitam*

*tiada dalam gambar: fatin liyana*

Okkay, I got another issue here, quotation by people..

Pagi tadi tengah2 sikat rambut, tibe2 teringat there was once this girl told me..

"Ko ni kan harap tinggi kat rambut je"

Nah sebijik! Sampai hati kan. Cisss. Sebab dulu2 memang suka buat style macam tu.

And there was even this guy cakap..

"Sudah2 la gubah bunga tu"

Erkk, rambut aku dikatakan bunga, celaka tak? ahahaha

And hari tu mase pergi exam, ade orang tegur,

"Ko pakai bedak ke?"

And I was like taken aback. Macam la aku ni gelap sangat. Cisss

*tinggi ke? biase je kan*

nota kaki: agak2 kalau aku straighten rambut for the third time, mak halau rumah tak?

Thanx

2009-11-21T16:36:00.000-08:00

I had an enjoyable night yesterday. It was a simple night out for a

steamboat dinner at Moven Peak, the bills amazed me, RM316!

Ouchh, we better go for shopping instead guys, ahaha..

But still, it was fun even there was no movie. Owhhh 2012!

kenape la mesti full house?

Exam mode! The killing weeks

2009-11-21T00:36:00.000-08:00

I don't feel like blogging this few weeks, enough with this examination thingy. This semester is a big chaos and turmoil and thanks God it will come to its end soon. Yeahh! soon enough as my last paper is on 24. My dad will pick me up at 26 and so pondering what I'm going to do in the two days gap.

I'm so frustrated as there is no study week for this time around. They people should have not decide to get rid of it just like that. I thought as there is no study week, the gap between each paper would be long enough. But hell, it is even contradicted. There is even 2 papers for me in one day! And guess what? The next morning I have another paper to work out. UTP exam unit is crazy and they don't think about student! Hate them for that reason.

To make it bad, all the three papers are on facts-basis which we have to memorize every single of word. Small Business & Entrepreneurship, Health Safety & Environment and Principles of Marketing. I got enough with three of them, I'm blowing! And just now as for Marketing, I don't know what have I wrote on that lame paper, even there is some facts I mixed up with Small Business paper. Omg, I'm screwed up!But still, I'm hoping for good grade in Marketing. Encik Abu Bakar, give me A ya!

My first paper, Data Communication & Networking (why i'm so rajin to mention this subject's full name) was a mess. The question was like oh my god, you have never expected. Tips given was not helping langsung. Please God, I'm hoping for some miracles, give me A for this paper. Dr Halabi! Tolong lah. I know this won't happen. Tssk

My second paper was like oh my god jugak, tapi not as killing as DCN. It is more direct and linean. I'm so pissed off with my coursework marks, got little marks for project presentation which I was doomed (refer to previous entry). Tapi as it is programming, well..it is obvious that I'm not good at this, I don't hope for a good grade sangat. Tapi Dr Fadzil, tolong lah! Bagi B+ okk!

My third paper, SBE! The subjective question was not expected. The question is not a famous type. I wonder why this Mrs Satirenjit choose the not-sot-important part in the notes, like layouts, and management style. People tend to focus more on other major parts and of course yang not so important would come last. Mrs Satirenjit, please help me! Give me A. I know this won't happen jugak.

The next paper after SBE is HSE, it was held on the same day (Friday). Banyak gila tak cover for HSE, tak sempat nak baca semua but thanks God, luckily it was not bad even there was some questions I was screwed. Felt lazy to go for Friday Prayer that day sebab banyak kot tak cover plus exam at 3pm. Nasib lah, I got a good roomate over here yang ajak paksa. Nanti dia kena walk all the way up to mosque yang jauh berbatu batu tu pulak. Suruh bawa moto sendiri takut. Haiyooo! Anyway, Dr Lidia tolong lah tanda my paper when you are in a good mood.

My next and last paper is on 24, it is System Analysis & Design which require you to do comprehensive reading. Banyak betol subjek membaca semester ni. Courseworks for this subject is not that bad and so I'm hoping for a good grade. Ms Rozana, please make sure soalan tak susah2 okk. God, I want to be in Dean's Lists for this semester lagi. Please help me this time around. I want it so badly. I'm counting on my SAD paper this 24. Can't wait to go back home, I want to have a long peaceful break. Far away from books.

nota kaki: I want to watch 2012 so badly tapi tak de sape nak ajak pergi cinema. I'm so gonna watch this movie!

nota kaki 2: tak faham kenape roommate gelak guling2 tengok gameshow jepun/korea tu, hepinye kau

Omg! Final exam is approaching

2009-11-10T07:15:00.000-08:00

Tadi went out for dinner and order la makanan from this brother. Lepas habis order, my roommate said kenape over sangat mase order tadi? macam nak goda dia je, kejap push your body ke depan kejap ke belakang. Some sort like that la my roommate cakap. And I was like staggered. Was I like seducing him? Erkkk..confuse di situ. Kadang2 kite tak perasan what we did, but other people around might have noticed kan. Hmmm..actually nak cakap pasal my collection of long sleeve shirts. Tak sangka those shirts useful pulak for this semester. As for previous semesters, they will be just remain in the luggage. Perhaps sebab I've got quite number of presentations for this semester and semua pun perlu pakai kemeja. A fact that one has to know is, I bought most of them at the same time. It was a one day out just to shop for shirts, it was fun! It was before going for the interviews which I was short-listed after SPM. Interview Tesl UiTM, Interview Tesl Maktab Perguruan and Interview for UTP.

Mum yang semangat nak beli semua tu, so that I have few selections to make nanti. See how generous my mum as four of them are GMV which costs her RM80-90 per shirt. But for ties, I have to use my own money la, nvm. Teringat lagi for each of the interview that I went, I wore different colours. Semangat! Macam la ade orang perasan if I wore the same shirt for each interview. If ade pun, that person would be my parents la. No one else ya, sebab I don't stumble with same people for the three interviews that I went to. To make it great, I succeeded in all of the interviews, hoorayy! But, too bad I have choosen UTP and now I'm regret. Isshhh, put that aside. I'm going to face final dah pun this Friday. I think I should buka bisnes sewa baju la sebab ramai dah yang pinjam my shirts ni, like acap, otromen, syaf and nizam. At least I got something as return kan, ahaha.. I'm so into money sekarang, I need to shop for few gadgets la during sem break nanti. Owhh, shopping spree! Can't wait people. Ok, get to go. Banyak lagi tak cover for final ni, tapi sempat lagi facing my lap top ni, posting new entry for my blog. I should get back to my work. Wish me luck for final!

p/s: someone said if i have a child, he/she would looks great as a resemblance to his father (me), hehe.. thanx for that.

Dear Housemates

2009-11-07T19:06:00.000-08:00

Can someone please remove ikan kat dalam fridge tu? It's sordid tahu tak? Pelik la diorang ni, kalau tak nak masak..please la buang kan. Dah berbulan bulan kat dalam tu, even before
ramadhan lagi. And can I have toilet for my own use please.. tak nak share dengan orang2 ni, ishh.. Yang lagi sordid, sink kat dapur dah jadi tempat buang2 hingus semua, geli nye ya Allah..
disgusting kot.

p/s: sape yang curi my fork semalam? aku sumpah mata ko tercucuk fork tu, puas hati!